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Things've been.... weird lately. First things first, I've quit my job. It's not so much the quitting part that makes me feel terrible, it's how I quit that makes my stomach turn. I just stopped caring. I called in sick for a shift. I wasn't sick, per se, but I was definitely not well. And then I didn't bother calling, or going in to see when my next shit would be. I missed my shift last night, and tonight. I did nothing last night, except talk to a friend and help her find peace. And tonight, I went to my neighbour's house for a fireworks display. Kinda lacl-lustred, but what do I care?
But, on the brighter side, my application with Jack Astor's is... pretty much accepted, and I can sense it'll be a better place for me. Things like... bar training, around $10 an hour, and more, I have a feeling I'm gonna like it. Hell, for $10 an hour, I better.
But, recently, I've just... I've been experiencing weird feelings, what I would normally describe as... well, lust... but it seems somewhat different. Perhaps it's a ner perspective on the matter, but... whatever it is, it's kinda wearing me down.
I guess all this time away from what I want has made it seem the misery is hiding like a wolf in sheep's clothing. It's really annoying. I have moments of glee, and then I feel terrible without notice. I'm really not sure what I need, but whatever it is, I hope it gets here fast.
I'm gonna listen to some music, and go to bed at the first signs of tiredness.
But, on the brighter side, my application with Jack Astor's is... pretty much accepted, and I can sense it'll be a better place for me. Things like... bar training, around $10 an hour, and more, I have a feeling I'm gonna like it. Hell, for $10 an hour, I better.
But, recently, I've just... I've been experiencing weird feelings, what I would normally describe as... well, lust... but it seems somewhat different. Perhaps it's a ner perspective on the matter, but... whatever it is, it's kinda wearing me down.
I guess all this time away from what I want has made it seem the misery is hiding like a wolf in sheep's clothing. It's really annoying. I have moments of glee, and then I feel terrible without notice. I'm really not sure what I need, but whatever it is, I hope it gets here fast.
I'm gonna listen to some music, and go to bed at the first signs of tiredness.