Life
I feel the need to analyse my current state of being today. I've been all contemplative all day, in a very positive way. It's nice to see my life in a positive light, I've felt kinda negative for a long while.
I'm working at the grocery store down the street, cashiering part time. It's actually rather nice. My coworkers fall into two catagories:
1. giggly teens who are nice enough but tend to stand around and giggle with each other too much on the job. Who are all better cashiers than me which is a slight blow to my ego, though I know I've only been there a few weeks and they have much more experience
2. Lovely 30+ ladies who are all very nice to me and know how to step in and help when I'm feeling lost without making me feel dumb
The customers are all at least civil, and some are really friendly and fun to chat with as I ring them up. I try to be cheery to them but I do find myself drifting into my own little world sometimes and just doing the minimum to get them on their way. All told, it's a decent job and only takes up 20-25 hours a week. I was looking for full time at first, but there's no such jobs to be had unless I went back to the dreaded Elm Wurst (as Sarah dubbed it). I was really set on earning as much money as possible, but I've come to realise that having that much more down time is good for me. I've been kinda lazy lately, but I do have plans for how to fill my leisure time with useful activities. And I'll make enough money to do the things I need/want to do, which includes a vacation to someplace warm and beachy.
I got the Driver's Handbook from the library today. Finally, at 22, I am going to learn how to drive. I'm taking Driver's Ed near the end of August with a neighbour of mine. The course is for adults, so no snot-faced teenagers! Yay!
I plan on being involved with my community theatre while I'm here, in whatever capacity I can. It's great to be involved with a show. Although I will admit that working behind the scenes on a show in June brought up some unpleasant, suppressed feelings of resentment over my squelched acting ambitions. I gotta work on that.
I'm planning on going to Korea in January to teach English. I'm alternately scared and excited by it, but I've made up my mind to go. I've been talking to a girl who went and taught there for a year last year (a friend of a friend), and she's filling me in on a lot of useful information. I'm going through the same organization she did, Canada2Korea. They have a good reputation and the girl I've been talking to was pleased with them. I think it'll be a great adventure, and it'll let me pay off my osap completely withing a year AND save a decent amount too. I still haven't quite figured out my long term career goals yet, but I'm thinking about teacher's college and this year will help me figure out if I really like teaching.
Plus, I like to be the first do do things. I was the first among my friends to go to university, and I'll be the first to work in a foreign country. I just have to get up that blind fearlessness that I know is in me, and ignore the over-cautious, wimpy part of me.
I'm working at the grocery store down the street, cashiering part time. It's actually rather nice. My coworkers fall into two catagories:
1. giggly teens who are nice enough but tend to stand around and giggle with each other too much on the job. Who are all better cashiers than me which is a slight blow to my ego, though I know I've only been there a few weeks and they have much more experience
2. Lovely 30+ ladies who are all very nice to me and know how to step in and help when I'm feeling lost without making me feel dumb
The customers are all at least civil, and some are really friendly and fun to chat with as I ring them up. I try to be cheery to them but I do find myself drifting into my own little world sometimes and just doing the minimum to get them on their way. All told, it's a decent job and only takes up 20-25 hours a week. I was looking for full time at first, but there's no such jobs to be had unless I went back to the dreaded Elm Wurst (as Sarah dubbed it). I was really set on earning as much money as possible, but I've come to realise that having that much more down time is good for me. I've been kinda lazy lately, but I do have plans for how to fill my leisure time with useful activities. And I'll make enough money to do the things I need/want to do, which includes a vacation to someplace warm and beachy.
I got the Driver's Handbook from the library today. Finally, at 22, I am going to learn how to drive. I'm taking Driver's Ed near the end of August with a neighbour of mine. The course is for adults, so no snot-faced teenagers! Yay!
I plan on being involved with my community theatre while I'm here, in whatever capacity I can. It's great to be involved with a show. Although I will admit that working behind the scenes on a show in June brought up some unpleasant, suppressed feelings of resentment over my squelched acting ambitions. I gotta work on that.
I'm planning on going to Korea in January to teach English. I'm alternately scared and excited by it, but I've made up my mind to go. I've been talking to a girl who went and taught there for a year last year (a friend of a friend), and she's filling me in on a lot of useful information. I'm going through the same organization she did, Canada2Korea. They have a good reputation and the girl I've been talking to was pleased with them. I think it'll be a great adventure, and it'll let me pay off my osap completely withing a year AND save a decent amount too. I still haven't quite figured out my long term career goals yet, but I'm thinking about teacher's college and this year will help me figure out if I really like teaching.
Plus, I like to be the first do do things. I was the first among my friends to go to university, and I'll be the first to work in a foreign country. I just have to get up that blind fearlessness that I know is in me, and ignore the over-cautious, wimpy part of me.