This is IT!
This is the very first poem I wrote that I was proud of. I wrote it the second half of my junior year, and didn't do anything in 3 classes because I was so busy writing down these ideas. It just flowed, and I thought it was just so kickass. It kind of does sound sorta like someone rapping, but who cares? Looking back on it, I think I've gotten alot better, but I don't know. What do you think?
I wanna break down and cry
I wanna tear down the walls
I have alot on my mind
All these bad thoughts, they crawl
in my head, they don't stop
I wanna rip them all out
because there's goodness in there
and that's what I'm all about
Why can't I be free
from this curse that I have?
That I help all I see
From their demons, I save
but I put it all on myself
so many times, it's too much
I can't keep doing all this shit
cuz then I'll see that I'm such
an idiot, but that's fine
If I can help, then I'm done
I can go back to MY life
Maybe go back to some fun
Unless I let my problems build
and let my own demons loose
And when that happens, sometimes
I feel I gotta turn to the noose
And end it once and for all
It's a way out, it seems easy
But from what I've learned in this world
there can be nothing that easy
But life's too important
to just let it go for yourself
Don't be selfish, know they care
even if they don't show it themselves
That's why I'll never die
That's why I'll always keep fighting
I have to keep the battle going
so I can keep the light from dying
They all depend on me, and
I just can't let them all down
I can't, it's not my nature
I just can't not be around
to help, that's why I'm here
And when I kill that dark black
we can live without fear
knowing we've taken it back
that lovely feeling we share
when we haven't a worry
and we can start to really care
for each other, no hurries
to leave your warm gentle touch
you're my reason for living
I can't thank you enough
for the love that you've given
my heart, though I must share it
with others, but that means I'll
have to help them take on the brothers
and sons of the demons I've killed
Which means I'm back on my horse
going back out to the field
but with you in my heart
I'll use that as my shield
to protect me from the evils
and to save how we feel
I love you
I wanna break down and cry
I wanna tear down the walls
I have alot on my mind
All these bad thoughts, they crawl
in my head, they don't stop
I wanna rip them all out
because there's goodness in there
and that's what I'm all about
Why can't I be free
from this curse that I have?
That I help all I see
From their demons, I save
but I put it all on myself
so many times, it's too much
I can't keep doing all this shit
cuz then I'll see that I'm such
an idiot, but that's fine
If I can help, then I'm done
I can go back to MY life
Maybe go back to some fun
Unless I let my problems build
and let my own demons loose
And when that happens, sometimes
I feel I gotta turn to the noose
And end it once and for all
It's a way out, it seems easy
But from what I've learned in this world
there can be nothing that easy
But life's too important
to just let it go for yourself
Don't be selfish, know they care
even if they don't show it themselves
That's why I'll never die
That's why I'll always keep fighting
I have to keep the battle going
so I can keep the light from dying
They all depend on me, and
I just can't let them all down
I can't, it's not my nature
I just can't not be around
to help, that's why I'm here
And when I kill that dark black
we can live without fear
knowing we've taken it back
that lovely feeling we share
when we haven't a worry
and we can start to really care
for each other, no hurries
to leave your warm gentle touch
you're my reason for living
I can't thank you enough
for the love that you've given
my heart, though I must share it
with others, but that means I'll
have to help them take on the brothers
and sons of the demons I've killed
Which means I'm back on my horse
going back out to the field
but with you in my heart
I'll use that as my shield
to protect me from the evils
and to save how we feel
I love you