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Wow I haven't written anything in here for forever. My last entry was so lame that I had to delete it.sigh.
Anyway, I cant even describe how happy I am for this semester to be over. It has been the worst yet and I hope it doesn't ever get worse than this. I was a Speech Pathology and Audiology major, but I decided to swtich to Human Development and Family studies because I absolutely HATE Speech Path. I had to take this Applied Phonetics class and it is the hardest and most boring class I have ever taken. If I had to sit through more classes like that and go to grad school so sit through even more terrible ones, I would probably go insane and kill myself. It was horrible. So basically this semester was trying to figure out what the hell I actually want to do with my life, but I still haven't really fully decided. I changed to HDFS because my faculty partner for teaching orientation graduated with that and she loved it so I thought I would give it a try. I think I want to focus on youth development and be a preschool/kindergarden teacher. Little kids are so much fun and are so happy and carefree. I need that happiness and carefree attitude in life back, and I really love working with kids. They make me laugh and smile. So we will see how it goes.
I am still working as a server at the Roadhouse, but I was informed yesterday that I am on very thin ice. Apparently I have messed up a lot of credit cards or something and if I do it again I will be gone. I think I found what I was doing wrong so I should be ok, but it still scares the shit out of me because I cannot lose this job. I dont know why I have been messing it up because I have been there for a few months now, and it really makes me feel like a dumbass. I think my bosses think I am a total idiot. Well, I guess I kinda am in some ways. I just overthink things too much there because I dont want to mess up but I end up fucking up anyway. Serving is so hard and maybe I'm just not meant to do it, but I like my job because of the people I work with and I make pretty good money most of the time. I dont know, I just hope I dont fuck up again.
I have been doing a lot of research for study abroad programs and I am pretty sure I am going to do one in Prague, Czech Republic. I have always wanted to go there and that is my heritage, so I really want to check it out. It is supposed to be beautiful there and I have heard nothing but great things. The only problem is that I dont know when I will do it. I want to next spring but I really want to live with katie, cailey, and some people next year but if I go next spring I probably wont be able to because it will be in the middle of the lease. I will probably end up getting shafted out of living with them of course though because there are so many people who want to live together now. I just dont know but I/ we have to figure all this out really soon.
A new relationship may be budding for me now. It is exciting, but I still dont really know if I am over Brian enough to get into another relationship now. I just really want to take it slow for now and I am enjoying how it is right now.All I can do is wait and see what happens.
Well back to studying for finals. Man I just want to fast forward to them being over and for break. I cant wait.
I should probably stop smoking the ganja. That is probably why I am scatterbrained and crazy lately. I doubt it.
Anyway, I cant even describe how happy I am for this semester to be over. It has been the worst yet and I hope it doesn't ever get worse than this. I was a Speech Pathology and Audiology major, but I decided to swtich to Human Development and Family studies because I absolutely HATE Speech Path. I had to take this Applied Phonetics class and it is the hardest and most boring class I have ever taken. If I had to sit through more classes like that and go to grad school so sit through even more terrible ones, I would probably go insane and kill myself. It was horrible. So basically this semester was trying to figure out what the hell I actually want to do with my life, but I still haven't really fully decided. I changed to HDFS because my faculty partner for teaching orientation graduated with that and she loved it so I thought I would give it a try. I think I want to focus on youth development and be a preschool/kindergarden teacher. Little kids are so much fun and are so happy and carefree. I need that happiness and carefree attitude in life back, and I really love working with kids. They make me laugh and smile. So we will see how it goes.
I am still working as a server at the Roadhouse, but I was informed yesterday that I am on very thin ice. Apparently I have messed up a lot of credit cards or something and if I do it again I will be gone. I think I found what I was doing wrong so I should be ok, but it still scares the shit out of me because I cannot lose this job. I dont know why I have been messing it up because I have been there for a few months now, and it really makes me feel like a dumbass. I think my bosses think I am a total idiot. Well, I guess I kinda am in some ways. I just overthink things too much there because I dont want to mess up but I end up fucking up anyway. Serving is so hard and maybe I'm just not meant to do it, but I like my job because of the people I work with and I make pretty good money most of the time. I dont know, I just hope I dont fuck up again.
I have been doing a lot of research for study abroad programs and I am pretty sure I am going to do one in Prague, Czech Republic. I have always wanted to go there and that is my heritage, so I really want to check it out. It is supposed to be beautiful there and I have heard nothing but great things. The only problem is that I dont know when I will do it. I want to next spring but I really want to live with katie, cailey, and some people next year but if I go next spring I probably wont be able to because it will be in the middle of the lease. I will probably end up getting shafted out of living with them of course though because there are so many people who want to live together now. I just dont know but I/ we have to figure all this out really soon.
A new relationship may be budding for me now. It is exciting, but I still dont really know if I am over Brian enough to get into another relationship now. I just really want to take it slow for now and I am enjoying how it is right now.All I can do is wait and see what happens.
Well back to studying for finals. Man I just want to fast forward to them being over and for break. I cant wait.
I should probably stop smoking the ganja. That is probably why I am scatterbrained and crazy lately. I doubt it.