if only u knew what....
........u ment to me!!! Ohhh there i go again....another title to another bloody RipChord song!!!!!! had a wicked nite on thursday. I took the day off placement....stayed in bed till 12!!!! such bliss....haven't done that for months!! Got up finished unit 11.....had a shower....arsed around 4 a bit as us girls do best. Julie and Ruby came round for cup a cha and a chat...then it was back to ju's flat....she helped me straighten my hair!!!wow i've never seen it look that good down b4!!!! went and met vicki and got sum vodka..went back to the flat put sum tunes on and started the nite as we ment to carry on. Got to BN21 and ruby wasn't let in coz her I.D looked fake....even tho it wasn't ...saw Hannah walking to TJ's and then saw Mr Page taking his stuff into the club. It was sooooo good to see him again...it's bin like 2 nearly 3 weeks and i missed him loads. Me and the girls went off to spoons and got wrecked on shots, they couldn't believe that i can't taste vodka....well now they know!!!! Went back to TJ's, met Hannah b/f ...he seems sweet but a bit over whelmed but how excited and pissed we all were!!! had a good chat to Bradley...he's such a gem....he thought i was the same age as Dave.....muhahahah....i think not! Had a talk with Dave...and a big hug for all the weeks i missed out on seeing him...got more and more drunk....introduced my freinds to ross and they all fell for his charm!!! Then they buggerd off coz they don't like rock!!!!pathetic...so i stayed with hannah and the guys...fine by me!!! Dave saw the pic i have of him in my purse...i was sooooo embarrassed ....he said it was sweet...he even remembered that it was taken at my birthday!!! But then shock horror i saw the girl he likes.....oh shit.....then i got shitty and told him to go sit with his bird as im only a silly little fan....unlike her......his face dropped.....and he tried to talk to me but i walked off ....oopppsss i can't handle my feelings when im drunk. It's just the fact that he still flirts with me.....and he knows how i feel bout him......but he still does it....and i don't know how to take it.....so when im pissed i flip and tell him to pack it in!!!! oh dear!!!Got more and more drunk......friends sat there bored as fuck with faces liked slapped arses!!!!!Then the fucking buggers played b4 ur time!!!!yey my fave song!!!!! Vicki asked me to get ross's numba....he said "tell her i got a g/f".......hehe made me chuckle coz i know he likes hannah!!!! then as i left dave gave me a big kiss on the lips!!!! mmmmmmm!!! I got outside the club and saw they were loading their stuff back into their cars.....so i came up with a master plan...and pretended to feel sick......chris asked if i was ok......but i didn't say a word...so he got dave...hehehe. He came and rubbed my back.......put his arm around me and stroked my hair!!!!!result....said he wanted to take me home to make sure i was ok.....i said i was fine and then walked off with sum lads i'd got chatting to earlier!!!!!!David Page....two can play that game......but i will always win!!!! oh well.....this is gonna be a long one today i think.....let's see oh yeh...i gotta find my own place to live now.....my step-dad has got sick and tired of having me around....and can't satnd me any more...so i gotta leave....i don't want him to get pissed off with mum coz it ain't her fault.......i think there is just something about me he can't stand....mainly the fact that i interrupted his 'new little' family when i moved in.....so now i'm moving out.....probably end up in a tent....always got my beast of a car...PERCY Rawwkks!!! anyway...im doin what ross does best...waffling...so im gonna leave it at that...feel betta now i got all that off my chest !!