Finding the balance...
or some fuckery like that.
So yeah, it has been known that I haven't been online really for months because of my old computer dying and lack of internet. I spent 6 months without it. When I got my new computer, I told myself that I wouldn't be suckered into online stuff and for awhile I wasn't. but the internet is so tempting and right there. Also I didn't know how much i used it until I didn't have it for awhile. But i suppose it's a good thing. I have been using it more for resources,ideas and crafts than the gossip/drama stuff (even though I still read it,I just try not to get involved). I don't know what I'd do without my computer and phone now. A child of the 21st century is never without one or the other.
I'm going to do an art post soon,But i just wanted to ramble for abit.
I have decided to start teaching myself the tools I need to become a better artist. I'm not going to get into school until next year,(I am going to take some classes here,just to take less wherever I go) But I want to be more prepared on my own. I'm a quick learner and most of the stuff I already know the basics of, but I guess it's more of learning it then putting it into my own style. Sometimes I let mechanics of things totally over throw the creative parts of my work and I lose my drawing in the process. I plan on working on this. I just need resources and a tutorials. My main focus is on photoshop. I think the more I work with this the better my work will be. Or atleast get me another tool to use. It's not like I haven't used it before, it's just not something I really stuck to using. I used it for school things mainly. But whatever it's never too late.
I plan on posting some things online soon. On good days my webcam can get really good photos. I managed to get some drawings up and even one through some basic photoshopping. They are going to be dark because it's still a webcam. I just want to show the drawings,get feedback etc.
Other Stuff: I'm more excited about moving on my own. It's time I got time to myself and my own space. Just mine. No roommates. Most places in Cleveland have one bedrooms for the same rent I paid in Chicago living with others. As long as I find a place with heat I'm good. I was also kinda scared to live on my own, me being a young girl and all,but I have to get out there sometime. I'm really holding out on a clerk/teller job. Not a dream job but something that's going to keep a roof over my head and money for things I really want to do. Life is all about alittle give and take. Yeah Cleveland sucks,it's not a city of thrills and adventures but I don't need that stuff right now. I had all the fun I can take from chicago. It's all about working hard and dealing with less drama. I don't mind living here until I save up enough to leave. i'm fine working and waiting. Besides I'm becoming an old woman anyway. I'm a social person,I'll go out when I want but not all the time. Now if only I found me a dude to do/explore/watch movies/have a laugh/create/enjoy things would be smashing. But I'm not complaining just as long as some things work out. :D
If this didn't make a lick of sense sorry, I'm high and have been really optimistic about things. Also looking at some other people's work (on livejournal and other places) it has helped me grow more bold with showing my own. I have been thinking about where I want to be in my 30's and where I want to be in art and I think it's time to stop fucking around. Mainly giving myself more confidence and willing to learn to be better.
but really I probably wouldn't have written all this without alittle help. :)
So yeah, it has been known that I haven't been online really for months because of my old computer dying and lack of internet. I spent 6 months without it. When I got my new computer, I told myself that I wouldn't be suckered into online stuff and for awhile I wasn't. but the internet is so tempting and right there. Also I didn't know how much i used it until I didn't have it for awhile. But i suppose it's a good thing. I have been using it more for resources,ideas and crafts than the gossip/drama stuff (even though I still read it,I just try not to get involved). I don't know what I'd do without my computer and phone now. A child of the 21st century is never without one or the other.
I'm going to do an art post soon,But i just wanted to ramble for abit.
I have decided to start teaching myself the tools I need to become a better artist. I'm not going to get into school until next year,(I am going to take some classes here,just to take less wherever I go) But I want to be more prepared on my own. I'm a quick learner and most of the stuff I already know the basics of, but I guess it's more of learning it then putting it into my own style. Sometimes I let mechanics of things totally over throw the creative parts of my work and I lose my drawing in the process. I plan on working on this. I just need resources and a tutorials. My main focus is on photoshop. I think the more I work with this the better my work will be. Or atleast get me another tool to use. It's not like I haven't used it before, it's just not something I really stuck to using. I used it for school things mainly. But whatever it's never too late.
I plan on posting some things online soon. On good days my webcam can get really good photos. I managed to get some drawings up and even one through some basic photoshopping. They are going to be dark because it's still a webcam. I just want to show the drawings,get feedback etc.
Other Stuff: I'm more excited about moving on my own. It's time I got time to myself and my own space. Just mine. No roommates. Most places in Cleveland have one bedrooms for the same rent I paid in Chicago living with others. As long as I find a place with heat I'm good. I was also kinda scared to live on my own, me being a young girl and all,but I have to get out there sometime. I'm really holding out on a clerk/teller job. Not a dream job but something that's going to keep a roof over my head and money for things I really want to do. Life is all about alittle give and take. Yeah Cleveland sucks,it's not a city of thrills and adventures but I don't need that stuff right now. I had all the fun I can take from chicago. It's all about working hard and dealing with less drama. I don't mind living here until I save up enough to leave. i'm fine working and waiting. Besides I'm becoming an old woman anyway. I'm a social person,I'll go out when I want but not all the time. Now if only I found me a dude to do/explore/watch movies/have a laugh/create/enjoy things would be smashing. But I'm not complaining just as long as some things work out. :D
If this didn't make a lick of sense sorry, I'm high and have been really optimistic about things. Also looking at some other people's work (on livejournal and other places) it has helped me grow more bold with showing my own. I have been thinking about where I want to be in my 30's and where I want to be in art and I think it's time to stop fucking around. Mainly giving myself more confidence and willing to learn to be better.
but really I probably wouldn't have written all this without alittle help. :)