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so i pretty much had a strange dream the other night.
it was about zach.
were just friends now. nothing more. but i had this..DREAM. .about him. it scares me.
so we were at his show. & i was hugging him & i leaned up & gently kissed him.
so we just started making out. like hardcore making out.
& then i dont know the scenery changes & i'm pushed against this white pillar & he looks down at me after us kissing & breaths deep & harsh saying: "i cant believe you made us stop doing this" & i was thinking in my head [i didnt, you did] & we just started making out all over & it was nuts.
i like the dream. a lot. because i love kissing him & i'd do it again if i could. but i dont like him like that anymore & it scares me because i dont want to like him in that way. its weird because.. at the show he'd hug me.. not like he hug's anyone else.. but like..a REAL meaning hug.. & i like them. a lot. but i dont want to like him like that anymore.
oh well.
i like gabe.
GABRIEL I LIKE YOU A LOT BABY
i should give him my livejournal url so he can read these & understand me more.. i dunno though. i mean.. what good could actually come from it?
i have a 12 year old stalker.
school starts up again tomorrow.
uhm uhmuhmmmmmmmm lydia likes this boy tommy. brad's his older brother. tommy reminds me of daniel fucker. yea i hate it.
i got a new aim screen name. because too many boys IMed me & stalked me. & i had people on my list i didnt talk to. & i didnt feel like deleting them.
it was about zach.
were just friends now. nothing more. but i had this..DREAM. .about him. it scares me.
so we were at his show. & i was hugging him & i leaned up & gently kissed him.
so we just started making out. like hardcore making out.
& then i dont know the scenery changes & i'm pushed against this white pillar & he looks down at me after us kissing & breaths deep & harsh saying: "i cant believe you made us stop doing this" & i was thinking in my head [i didnt, you did] & we just started making out all over & it was nuts.
i like the dream. a lot. because i love kissing him & i'd do it again if i could. but i dont like him like that anymore & it scares me because i dont want to like him in that way. its weird because.. at the show he'd hug me.. not like he hug's anyone else.. but like..a REAL meaning hug.. & i like them. a lot. but i dont want to like him like that anymore.
oh well.
i like gabe.
GABRIEL I LIKE YOU A LOT BABY
i should give him my livejournal url so he can read these & understand me more.. i dunno though. i mean.. what good could actually come from it?
i have a 12 year old stalker.
school starts up again tomorrow.
uhm uhmuhmmmmmmmm lydia likes this boy tommy. brad's his older brother. tommy reminds me of daniel fucker. yea i hate it.
i got a new aim screen name. because too many boys IMed me & stalked me. & i had people on my list i didnt talk to. & i didnt feel like deleting them.