Relationship Rant (don't feel obligated to read)
Sometimes being in my relationship really stresses me out. I am constantly worrying about almost everything, and I don't mind (for the most part) because I really care about us. The hardest part is not trying to impose my values and opinions on his life and choices, but it's so difficult trying to be supportive of something that, in the end, I don't feel comfortable with or good about. I can convince myself that it will be alright, that we can work it out, but I have so much doubt and uncertainty that I contradict myself continually.
Being in a long distance relationship is hard too. So many nights I lie in bed thinking about being with him and how wonderful it would be to have somebody to come home to and cuddle with and get a hug from when I really need one. Being at school makes me feel so lonely and helpless. I feel bad for my friends down here who have to put up with me talking about Robert all the time and telling them my frustrations and concerns. Sometimes I worry that he's all that at talk about.
People always comment about how often we talk on the phone and judge what I say and how I talk to him. I don't know that we talk on the phone too much; if you really love someone wouldn't you want to talk with them every moment that you could? I know that I get worked up when he doesn't call me when I expect him to, especially late at night as I am trying to fall asleep, but when the phone is our major communication how else should I react?
I'm ready to skip ahead in time and see where I am two years from now; if we're still together, if he actually becomes an officer, if I'm ever actually going to graduate... It's so hard having to be patient and accept that everything is out of my control.
Being in a long distance relationship is hard too. So many nights I lie in bed thinking about being with him and how wonderful it would be to have somebody to come home to and cuddle with and get a hug from when I really need one. Being at school makes me feel so lonely and helpless. I feel bad for my friends down here who have to put up with me talking about Robert all the time and telling them my frustrations and concerns. Sometimes I worry that he's all that at talk about.
People always comment about how often we talk on the phone and judge what I say and how I talk to him. I don't know that we talk on the phone too much; if you really love someone wouldn't you want to talk with them every moment that you could? I know that I get worked up when he doesn't call me when I expect him to, especially late at night as I am trying to fall asleep, but when the phone is our major communication how else should I react?
I'm ready to skip ahead in time and see where I am two years from now; if we're still together, if he actually becomes an officer, if I'm ever actually going to graduate... It's so hard having to be patient and accept that everything is out of my control.