The Best of What I Believe Is Best
Abraham said something really interesting to me just now. They said it was never our intention to align with the desires of others, but with our desires, with ourselves. This makes logical sense to me when I think about it, and I'm glad to be understanding of it.
I want to do that more, align with myself. In my life, I've lived some pretty hefty people-pleasing, all of it being really good for me in the end. I couldn't be interested in what I wrote above if I hadn't lived that. I want to align with who I am, what I'm wanting. It never occurred to me that I wasn't, in a way.
So I have a new manager at work. She's fantastic, but I will say that it took me some time to adjust to her method of managing. When I did, I was so relieved. I was so glad I didn't have to come to work to feel completely crappy, and I felt much more connection with her. However I could feel an off-ness about where I was. I'm glad I could see that.
I think it's in part that I aligned with what she was asking me to be, rather than stating what I wanted and aligning with that. I admit what I basically wanted was to feel better (which is always a great choice), and now I've achieved that, I want to hone in on my desire in this regard. What do I really want when it comes to 'jobs'?
Well...
I want to enjoy myself.
I want to feel the thrill of creation and co-creation.
I want to feel the on-ness and thus the off-ness of my game, whatever it is I do.
Being in a place where I'm not entirely specific about my next step 'career' wise, I want to embrace the uncertainty. I want to embrace not knowing and let it entice me with possibilities.
I want to feel good.
I want to be happy.
I want to connect with other people. I love practicing that.
Wouldn't it be nice to just love for loving? I want to attract the best of what I believe to be best to me. Wouldn't that be just wonderful? So nice?
I want to do that more, align with myself. In my life, I've lived some pretty hefty people-pleasing, all of it being really good for me in the end. I couldn't be interested in what I wrote above if I hadn't lived that. I want to align with who I am, what I'm wanting. It never occurred to me that I wasn't, in a way.
So I have a new manager at work. She's fantastic, but I will say that it took me some time to adjust to her method of managing. When I did, I was so relieved. I was so glad I didn't have to come to work to feel completely crappy, and I felt much more connection with her. However I could feel an off-ness about where I was. I'm glad I could see that.
I think it's in part that I aligned with what she was asking me to be, rather than stating what I wanted and aligning with that. I admit what I basically wanted was to feel better (which is always a great choice), and now I've achieved that, I want to hone in on my desire in this regard. What do I really want when it comes to 'jobs'?
Well...
I want to enjoy myself.
I want to feel the thrill of creation and co-creation.
I want to feel the on-ness and thus the off-ness of my game, whatever it is I do.
Being in a place where I'm not entirely specific about my next step 'career' wise, I want to embrace the uncertainty. I want to embrace not knowing and let it entice me with possibilities.
I want to feel good.
I want to be happy.
I want to connect with other people. I love practicing that.
Wouldn't it be nice to just love for loving? I want to attract the best of what I believe to be best to me. Wouldn't that be just wonderful? So nice?