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[i4spank8u2]

I am a big mess.
My life is falling apart.
I thought I knew what I wanted when I wanted it and was in control.
I'm starting to realize I'm not and maybe I never was.
Do I do anything for me?
Is this all what I predicted or hoped for?
Do I ever hope for anything?
Currently I have no goals for the future.
I want nothing.
I don't want to be here or there.