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you know what pisses me off? people under estimating me. no one knows what i'm capable of, except for me. i make a simple suggestion to get a job so i can by myself a car, and i get discouraged. i don't understand it. people are supposed to be responsible. people are supposed to grow up and support themselves. that's what parents teach you. no matter what your age is, you're going to have responsibilities. just so happens that as you get older, responsibilities get greater. and WOAH i'm getting older. i'm not a little fucking kid anymore. i'm ready to take on the responsibilities. i want to. it just pisses me off that no one else wants me to. if you want to support me, then support my decisions. if you can't do that, or you don't want to, then that's your problem. i know what i need to do, and i'm going to do it. yeah ok, i fucked up in school, i'm facing the consequences, it's my problem, no one elses. IDK what people expect of me. what do they want? for me to just stay away from responsibilities? ok, so i'm gonna get a job, that doesn't mean i can't enjoy life. maybe i enjoy life in a different way than everyone else. my "enjoyment" out of life isn't going out getting drunk with friends every weekend. sorry, i just don't find that fun. my enjoyment is working hard for the things i have, and knowing that all my hard work paid off. i don't want to depend on someone for the rest of my life. what's the point? so i can get everything ass handed to me? no. i don't want to have to run to mommy and daddy every time i need something. i want to be able to support myself, for a change. and i'm sorry but, if anyone has a problem with that, they can kiss my ass. having a job is a responsibility you take on when you get older. and i think it's time for me to get a job. sure it's going to be stressfull, sure it's going to be tiring.but i'm willing to do that so i can support myself. maybe i won't FULLY support myself, but it'll be pretty damn close.i just don't understand why anyone would discourage someone from doing that. it doesn't make sense to me. i want to grow up, i want to get a job and support myself, and yet, i get laughed at and make fun of...GAH!