My Released Wings Scatter My Wishes...Towards This Destroyed World- To a Sky Full of Prayers
I'm becoming distant from my best friend. It's been happening for awhile, but I'm finally starting to notice. I used to go over a lot- a lot more often than I do now, and I'd been busy back then. The reason I dropped out of some of my honors classes was to prevent that. But all I'm doing is becoming more distant from everyone. I'll stare out my window and think- want to go out somewhere since I've got nothing but time on my hands it seems. The Hyuuga have also been distant- or is that my fault? I've not heard from Hinata-sama or Hanabi-san since the beginning of March. It's unusual, and if I'm completely honest with myself and everyone, I'm feeling separated from the world.
Everyone around me seems to be fine- immersed in some activity or relationship of some kind that keeps them happy. I think that's what I was doing most of life before now. I'd been so worried about becoming greater than Hyuuga's head family that I forgot the rest of the world and completely buried myself in becoming better, stronger each day. That desire still possesses me- I do not believe it will leave me- but it's not nearly as maddening as it used to be. I still haven't made up to Hinata-sama for what happened. Maybe that's the reason I've not heard from her, though I don't quite think her the type to hold grudges, I did injure her pretty badly.
I've been thinking these things for awhile- trying to figure out what's wrong, what's going on, and why I feel so distant from everyone. Lee actually became sick from that bite he received and I didn't know about it until after he was relatively alright. What am I doing wrong? Gaara's there for him at least. That's the only comfort I have as far as that goes.
Or maybe I'm still reeling over my revelation that I've been in love with my best friend for a few years and didn't notice until he's gone. Amazing that it's what it took. I may not believe in Fate and Destiny as strongly as I once did, but sometimes I believe these things are deliberate. All I can wish for is Lee's happiness and attempt to stay in contact with him to be sure he's alright.
For anyone wanting to comment how unusual it is that I'm actually making a post about myself, yes, it is highly unusual because I prefer to try and deal with my own problems myself. It's taken awhile to realize I can't handle everything on my own- as much as that can hurt to admit.
((ooc: Strike is visible only to Naruto, Sasuke, Tenten, and Kidoumaru. I apologize for the angst-ridden post. Neji's been... staying out of a lot, and needed to create a post before being marked inactive, and he hasn't made any posts in awhile. Aside from that, he needs some character development :3))
Everyone around me seems to be fine- immersed in some activity or relationship of some kind that keeps them happy. I think that's what I was doing most of life before now. I'd been so worried about becoming greater than Hyuuga's head family that I forgot the rest of the world and completely buried myself in becoming better, stronger each day. That desire still possesses me- I do not believe it will leave me- but it's not nearly as maddening as it used to be. I still haven't made up to Hinata-sama for what happened. Maybe that's the reason I've not heard from her, though I don't quite think her the type to hold grudges, I did injure her pretty badly.
I've been thinking these things for awhile- trying to figure out what's wrong, what's going on, and why I feel so distant from everyone. Lee actually became sick from that bite he received and I didn't know about it until after he was relatively alright. What am I doing wrong? Gaara's there for him at least. That's the only comfort I have as far as that goes.
Or maybe I'm still reeling over my revelation that I've been in love with my best friend for a few years and didn't notice until he's gone. Amazing that it's what it took. I may not believe in Fate and Destiny as strongly as I once did, but sometimes I believe these things are deliberate. All I can wish for is Lee's happiness and attempt to stay in contact with him to be sure he's alright.
For anyone wanting to comment how unusual it is that I'm actually making a post about myself, yes, it is highly unusual because I prefer to try and deal with my own problems myself. It's taken awhile to realize I can't handle everything on my own- as much as that can hurt to admit.
((ooc: Strike is visible only to Naruto, Sasuke, Tenten, and Kidoumaru. I apologize for the angst-ridden post. Neji's been... staying out of a lot, and needed to create a post before being marked inactive, and he hasn't made any posts in awhile. Aside from that, he needs some character development :3))