Boys
Alright i haven't really been using this damn thing for a long time. But i have a lot on my chest right now and god damnit, i need to rant.
My boyfriend broke up with me a few days before my birthday(May 20th), 3 days to be exact. The reason that he gave at the time was that he found another girl who was closer and was there for him when he needed her. He called me later that night to make sure that i was ok. And i lied to him about me being ok...something about ice cream and chocolate. I never really got over him and i still really like him. Now comes the confusing part. He sent me a message through myspace telling me that he lied about the reason of him breaking up with me. His new reason, which i will not write because i respect his priviacy, made a lot more...sense in a really weird way... Anyway i was nervous after i read it and i didn't know what to say to him...finally i wrote him back and he read my reply sometime yesterday. I...don't know what is going to happen from here on in but i know...if he asked me out again...even if it was tomorrow...i would say yes without even batting an eye. I...i miss talking to him and i miss him understanding what i'm saying without having to even explain. We weren't even together that long and i still missed him a lot. I...i don't think that i'd mind seeing him with another girl as long as he's happy that way, even though i know i'll be jealous...but that's not the biggest problem...no of course it isn't....that'd be WAY too SIMPLE.
Another guy, the same guy that one of my best friends likes, just told me that he likes me, not her. And frankly, i feel like shit. The best part of the whole thing is he knows that i still like my ex and yet he lures me into practically begging for the secret that he kept...he started typing it on AIM, entered the text, then stopped. He tricked me into worrying for almost an hour because i know that his home life left something to be desired. I thought he was hurt. Instead he tricked me into begging for an hour in order to find out what's wrong...only for him to tell me that he likes me, "thinks i'm beautiful". Bullshit. And the worst thing of the whole convo is that when i tell him that i still like my ex, and try to bring up the fact that one of my best friends likes him because he decided to try the guilt trip of "nobody likes me", he gets pissy with me, insults MY BEST FRIEND and tries to get me to agree with him on the fact that i'm "better off without my ex." Even though my ex was ten times more curtious about my opinion in matters. This other guy tells me that he knows me inside and out and yet he has never talked to me before this week. I HATE IT. He thinks that it's ok to tell me that he knows me inside and out and that i don't know him at all. And you know what? I don't want to know him, especially if he wants to black mail, lie, and trick me into semi liking him. And this guy makes me happy that i never stopped liking Spike. Because i didn't rebound and get trapped by this ass hole.
My boyfriend broke up with me a few days before my birthday(May 20th), 3 days to be exact. The reason that he gave at the time was that he found another girl who was closer and was there for him when he needed her. He called me later that night to make sure that i was ok. And i lied to him about me being ok...something about ice cream and chocolate. I never really got over him and i still really like him. Now comes the confusing part. He sent me a message through myspace telling me that he lied about the reason of him breaking up with me. His new reason, which i will not write because i respect his priviacy, made a lot more...sense in a really weird way... Anyway i was nervous after i read it and i didn't know what to say to him...finally i wrote him back and he read my reply sometime yesterday. I...don't know what is going to happen from here on in but i know...if he asked me out again...even if it was tomorrow...i would say yes without even batting an eye. I...i miss talking to him and i miss him understanding what i'm saying without having to even explain. We weren't even together that long and i still missed him a lot. I...i don't think that i'd mind seeing him with another girl as long as he's happy that way, even though i know i'll be jealous...but that's not the biggest problem...no of course it isn't....that'd be WAY too SIMPLE.
Another guy, the same guy that one of my best friends likes, just told me that he likes me, not her. And frankly, i feel like shit. The best part of the whole thing is he knows that i still like my ex and yet he lures me into practically begging for the secret that he kept...he started typing it on AIM, entered the text, then stopped. He tricked me into worrying for almost an hour because i know that his home life left something to be desired. I thought he was hurt. Instead he tricked me into begging for an hour in order to find out what's wrong...only for him to tell me that he likes me, "thinks i'm beautiful". Bullshit. And the worst thing of the whole convo is that when i tell him that i still like my ex, and try to bring up the fact that one of my best friends likes him because he decided to try the guilt trip of "nobody likes me", he gets pissy with me, insults MY BEST FRIEND and tries to get me to agree with him on the fact that i'm "better off without my ex." Even though my ex was ten times more curtious about my opinion in matters. This other guy tells me that he knows me inside and out and yet he has never talked to me before this week. I HATE IT. He thinks that it's ok to tell me that he knows me inside and out and that i don't know him at all. And you know what? I don't want to know him, especially if he wants to black mail, lie, and trick me into semi liking him. And this guy makes me happy that i never stopped liking Spike. Because i didn't rebound and get trapped by this ass hole.