i'm tired...
i'm tired of it all...
today in my biology class we were reading medical journals, and this one subject constricts my heart every time i hear it; cancer.
i hate cancer, i hate it with a freaking passion.
maybe the fact that my mum has stage 4 ovarian cancer that has spread throughout her body and has gone into remission...
...i was told today that someone in her condition only has a 5year survival rate of 29.6%..meaning most don't make it to 5-years and only about 30% of them have survived for 5+ years..
maybe today just opened up my eyes even more when i realized my little brother isn't so little anymore, maybe because he's turning 16 in a few days and when asked about his future, he replies oh so casually... "i'll be joining the military sis, i'm gonna go into the army, as soon as i turn 17 i'll be talking with a recruiter. don't worry, i'm gonna make you, mum and dad proud of me one day." and when my dad was informed, his only reply was this, "it still pains me to hear that he will be following in my footsteps and going to the military before college...hearing he wants to go into the military brings tears to my eyes..."
i can't do this anymore, i'm so fucking tired of it all...
today in my biology class we were reading medical journals, and this one subject constricts my heart every time i hear it; cancer.
i hate cancer, i hate it with a freaking passion.
maybe the fact that my mum has stage 4 ovarian cancer that has spread throughout her body and has gone into remission...
...i was told today that someone in her condition only has a 5year survival rate of 29.6%..meaning most don't make it to 5-years and only about 30% of them have survived for 5+ years..
maybe today just opened up my eyes even more when i realized my little brother isn't so little anymore, maybe because he's turning 16 in a few days and when asked about his future, he replies oh so casually... "i'll be joining the military sis, i'm gonna go into the army, as soon as i turn 17 i'll be talking with a recruiter. don't worry, i'm gonna make you, mum and dad proud of me one day." and when my dad was informed, his only reply was this, "it still pains me to hear that he will be following in my footsteps and going to the military before college...hearing he wants to go into the military brings tears to my eyes..."
i can't do this anymore, i'm so fucking tired of it all...