IDENTITY
I have concluded during this past week that I don't know myself...weird I know. Some of you are probably thinking like the rest of the world that I know myself pretty well. If you do think so, then I must be a terrific actor, cuz honestly, I don't know who I am, or what my purpose is in life. Every morning I wake up, and get ready for school...and at one point I go to the mirror to brush my teeth or fix my hair, whatever it maybe...and I just ask myself, "Who honestly wants this ugly piece of feminine shit in this world??" But here is what I do know.......my name. I don't know how much a name can tell people but that's one thing about me that I know for certain: Zachary Jacob Spiegel. I guess it kind of has a ring to it, but nothing else about me does. School has made me realize a lot of things, some good and some bad. And what I realize is that I am rescheduled to sing in front of my entire acting for singers class next friday. Now, for me, this can be a big turning point in my life because we all know that first impressions are the most important. As soon as I open my mouth, and sing my heart out, I know that I have the ability to either wow the other talented members of the group and intimidate them...or totally fuck it up. But I know that when I do this, the teacher will remember it, whether it's good or bad. And this will be a factor she will consider when picking roles for me in future shows even if the shows are next year. She will STILL remember the first time I ever sang for her. I'm sure most of you are like, "Big deal, he's just singing for his class." Well to be honest with you, you're an idiot if you think that, cuz one gig can get you so far it isn't even funny. So, the point is, if I succeed with this, I hope that doing shows will allow me to pursue something I love, and help discover myself along the way.