Oh at last an entry
O.k. Apologies to all but I haven't had a chance to update. Been away from my PC. So a quick recap. Friday - fun , last day of training then went to the pub to say goodbye to my good friend Denny. Was v funny as late into the night my mate was totally trashed and I was a bit too. So I thought I'd make everyone laugh/scared cause the boys were winding me up again about being gay and that I'd never sleep with a man. O.k. that was funny so I just went "how do you know - If a man offered me a good package I might be persuaded " So I ended up sitting on my friends lap. It was funny cause then everyone thought we were getting it together. o.k. def. not as a. he's married b. he's got kids !!! Don't do that ( quite apart from the fact I was joking I don't do men!) but then another married man asked me out !! I couldn't stop laughing . My all this men throwing themselves at me What's all that about ??? Think It must be a man thing to want what they can't have. It makes me laugh.
Anyway Saturday headed of to El's. to meet her parents. Ended up being an hour late due to the lovely tube being up the prov creak w/out a paddle !! So wasn't overly happy. Actually I don't mind admitting I was sh**ing myself ! I really thought it was gona go wrong - and I laugh now - cause I was so mean to her. I mean I ignored her text msg's in the morning then I just showed up w/out much enthusiasm ! After a quick look round Greenwich - all ways difficult to do much when it's chucking it down with rain ! We headed off to her parents. Now I can honestly say hand on heart - wait for it- They're *really* nice people. No I'm being honest now. Her dads mad (but I knew that anyway) He met me and got down on one knee to kiss my outstretched hand ! *nutter* I was like o.k. whatever. But he did make me laugh. he even noticed I have long hair now (it's down to my shoulders and it was v short when he 1st met me) So that was nice . But biggest surprise of the night goes to her mother. this is the person who I thought had been dead off with me on the phone and I though oh oh this woman is gona hate me but no wrong assumption again. She was really nice and I actually taught she was v sweet and El picks on her a bit. (but in a nice way) she was v intrusting and we chatted about growing up in Northern Ireland. She's from C. Down. and how the world has changed since she was younger. We discussed our fave type of comedy shows like Dad's army and R U being served ?? See we have something in common ! She really was nice and I felt myself warming to her. Didn't really have a choice as El had left me on my own with her for a good 30 mins ! whilst she cooked some yummy Chinese food. Then at dinner I met her shy brother. He's v funny and we kinda ganged up on her it was *so* funny. Really now I can look back on it and smile with happy memories. Actually I enjoyed it so much I kinda want to go again. Just because it was v loving to just be El's friend not her lover. Be part of her family and be part of her life. Love can't exist without friendship and it makes it more stable if you meet the in laws. I'm sure it would have been dif. if they had known I was her lover but to be honest it gave us a chance to be friends and nothing more. As obviously I'm not going to try something on in her house with her parents there. I'm not *that* crazy. I loved the chance of just being her friend and it did prove to me that I can say *no* to her. I can hold back and not let my feeling get the better of me. It was sweet when we were in her room and she just sat next to me and cuddled me - I'm telling you I could die for those cuddles.
I hope I get another chance to meet her family, maybe get a chance to chat to all of them say over dinner or something. As I didn't get much of a chance to chat to her dad. Now before you all think I've been brainwashed. I still don't overly trust them and I'm not happy that we cant be open about "us" but then I didn't tell my father for ages and when I was going out with Celia we never went to my dad's. You know like something just can't be pushed out as it would shock people and there's no need to that as you gain nothing. I just hope that now that they've met me they might be more comfortable in letting El stay over. Not cause I wanna shag her but because I want to be her friend and have her stay over as a friend. That's all. But I'm willing to wait for this. For now I've met them, I like them, I *really* like them and I'm happy I've met them and I think she's happy to. I stayed the night and it was fun.
Sunday we went to Brighton. It was brilliant. I went to her church which was just *massive* at least around 1000 people there ! Crazy. Her church was a little to American evangelical for my liking and I think some of the things the preacher said was just a *little* inflammatory in a time when comments like that need to be calmed down but and it's a big but, overall it was a nice church and people were friendly. After that we went shopping and I finally found some shoes. I bought some ultra cool kina bowling alley shoes which are a dark red and I like them. always wanted that style so I'm happy and they seem o.k. with them at work. I also bought socks ( badly need them mine have holed in them !) and some music (notably Garbages new song) and a DVD of House of Mirth with the gorgeous Gillian Anderson *yum* After that we went to a lovely bohemian gay cafe that was brilliant. then we came home. The drive was majorly long ! we got back here and she ended up texting her friend Will and next thing I know we went to his house !! Mad ! I was much more relaxed meeting him a bit too much as I kinda let the cat out of the bag by calling her "sweetheart" or "darling" in places ! Opps ! but hey it went well so I'm happy. then we came home (sorry back to my house ;-) ) and we had a brilliant time in my room. No I'm not telling you what you all have nice vivid imaginations - fell free to fill it in for yourselves but needless to say I felt deliriously happy. Actually I was *so* happy I was gona cry. I kinda said " hey look I *love* you and I'm not playing games I *really* *do* love you. and then heart be still she said she loved me too. really loved me and wasn't playing games either ::Lisa now melts onto the floor:: argh ! She's *so* brilliant. I just melted. I mean I felt bad it got to that stage as we'd done so well up to that point of just being friends and then we became more and I know how bad that makes her feel but I guess one step at a time and I think this weekend we walked a long way together and it bought us closer together, not as a couple (cause hey that's too much) but maybe as lovers / as friends / as El and Li... that's all you can ask for. Never ask too much of love but receive it as best you can in whatever shape or form it decrees to share it's life with you because ultimately you will always be blessed and extremely lucky to have it for however brief it existence may be. Take every moment for what it is and live within it for tomorrow it may leave.
I know it's crazy but emailing her like mad today (despite my heavy workload) made me feel so in love with her (to parody a well known Texas song). She might be coming round on Friday to watch Dale Winton singing on tv (don't' ask!) and I think that'll be brilliant just to have her here and spend time together. O.k. I'm glad we spent the weekends apart as it has made being together all the more beautifully for it.
So all in all today has been dead boring in comparison to my w/end !! Apart from the fact that I'm so mega broke I'm begging my flat mate to hold tight for some of my rent. I've paid
Anyway Saturday headed of to El's. to meet her parents. Ended up being an hour late due to the lovely tube being up the prov creak w/out a paddle !! So wasn't overly happy. Actually I don't mind admitting I was sh**ing myself ! I really thought it was gona go wrong - and I laugh now - cause I was so mean to her. I mean I ignored her text msg's in the morning then I just showed up w/out much enthusiasm ! After a quick look round Greenwich - all ways difficult to do much when it's chucking it down with rain ! We headed off to her parents. Now I can honestly say hand on heart - wait for it- They're *really* nice people. No I'm being honest now. Her dads mad (but I knew that anyway) He met me and got down on one knee to kiss my outstretched hand ! *nutter* I was like o.k. whatever. But he did make me laugh. he even noticed I have long hair now (it's down to my shoulders and it was v short when he 1st met me) So that was nice . But biggest surprise of the night goes to her mother. this is the person who I thought had been dead off with me on the phone and I though oh oh this woman is gona hate me but no wrong assumption again. She was really nice and I actually taught she was v sweet and El picks on her a bit. (but in a nice way) she was v intrusting and we chatted about growing up in Northern Ireland. She's from C. Down. and how the world has changed since she was younger. We discussed our fave type of comedy shows like Dad's army and R U being served ?? See we have something in common ! She really was nice and I felt myself warming to her. Didn't really have a choice as El had left me on my own with her for a good 30 mins ! whilst she cooked some yummy Chinese food. Then at dinner I met her shy brother. He's v funny and we kinda ganged up on her it was *so* funny. Really now I can look back on it and smile with happy memories. Actually I enjoyed it so much I kinda want to go again. Just because it was v loving to just be El's friend not her lover. Be part of her family and be part of her life. Love can't exist without friendship and it makes it more stable if you meet the in laws. I'm sure it would have been dif. if they had known I was her lover but to be honest it gave us a chance to be friends and nothing more. As obviously I'm not going to try something on in her house with her parents there. I'm not *that* crazy. I loved the chance of just being her friend and it did prove to me that I can say *no* to her. I can hold back and not let my feeling get the better of me. It was sweet when we were in her room and she just sat next to me and cuddled me - I'm telling you I could die for those cuddles.
I hope I get another chance to meet her family, maybe get a chance to chat to all of them say over dinner or something. As I didn't get much of a chance to chat to her dad. Now before you all think I've been brainwashed. I still don't overly trust them and I'm not happy that we cant be open about "us" but then I didn't tell my father for ages and when I was going out with Celia we never went to my dad's. You know like something just can't be pushed out as it would shock people and there's no need to that as you gain nothing. I just hope that now that they've met me they might be more comfortable in letting El stay over. Not cause I wanna shag her but because I want to be her friend and have her stay over as a friend. That's all. But I'm willing to wait for this. For now I've met them, I like them, I *really* like them and I'm happy I've met them and I think she's happy to. I stayed the night and it was fun.
Sunday we went to Brighton. It was brilliant. I went to her church which was just *massive* at least around 1000 people there ! Crazy. Her church was a little to American evangelical for my liking and I think some of the things the preacher said was just a *little* inflammatory in a time when comments like that need to be calmed down but and it's a big but, overall it was a nice church and people were friendly. After that we went shopping and I finally found some shoes. I bought some ultra cool kina bowling alley shoes which are a dark red and I like them. always wanted that style so I'm happy and they seem o.k. with them at work. I also bought socks ( badly need them mine have holed in them !) and some music (notably Garbages new song) and a DVD of House of Mirth with the gorgeous Gillian Anderson *yum* After that we went to a lovely bohemian gay cafe that was brilliant. then we came home. The drive was majorly long ! we got back here and she ended up texting her friend Will and next thing I know we went to his house !! Mad ! I was much more relaxed meeting him a bit too much as I kinda let the cat out of the bag by calling her "sweetheart" or "darling" in places ! Opps ! but hey it went well so I'm happy. then we came home (sorry back to my house ;-) ) and we had a brilliant time in my room. No I'm not telling you what you all have nice vivid imaginations - fell free to fill it in for yourselves but needless to say I felt deliriously happy. Actually I was *so* happy I was gona cry. I kinda said " hey look I *love* you and I'm not playing games I *really* *do* love you. and then heart be still she said she loved me too. really loved me and wasn't playing games either ::Lisa now melts onto the floor:: argh ! She's *so* brilliant. I just melted. I mean I felt bad it got to that stage as we'd done so well up to that point of just being friends and then we became more and I know how bad that makes her feel but I guess one step at a time and I think this weekend we walked a long way together and it bought us closer together, not as a couple (cause hey that's too much) but maybe as lovers / as friends / as El and Li... that's all you can ask for. Never ask too much of love but receive it as best you can in whatever shape or form it decrees to share it's life with you because ultimately you will always be blessed and extremely lucky to have it for however brief it existence may be. Take every moment for what it is and live within it for tomorrow it may leave.
I know it's crazy but emailing her like mad today (despite my heavy workload) made me feel so in love with her (to parody a well known Texas song). She might be coming round on Friday to watch Dale Winton singing on tv (don't' ask!) and I think that'll be brilliant just to have her here and spend time together. O.k. I'm glad we spent the weekends apart as it has made being together all the more beautifully for it.
So all in all today has been dead boring in comparison to my w/end !! Apart from the fact that I'm so mega broke I'm begging my flat mate to hold tight for some of my rent. I've paid