happy bunny
Yo ! another entry yeah man ! o.k. I'm in a good mood and I intend to stay that way. Just been reading some comments you guys have left for me. Icewing and I seem to be having fun chatting about monsters the bed ;-) *sniggers* God he's funny :-) Anyway my day has been o.k. if *extremely* I had to get up at *6* this morning !! Yuck !! I had to go to the doctors. of course sod's law there I was waiting patiently to be seen by the consultant and the minute I go to the toilet - he buggin well goes and calls me !! Bummer so I had to run all the way back from the docs. me thinks this is not the way to win sympathy - running into your consultants room !! Don't think he believed me when I said my knee hurt ;-) *snigger* darn and it *really* hurt . Oh well :-) Still I've been told that my knee has passed it's inspection. There is nothing surgically wrong with my knee - yippee ! That's a 1st considering there is all the other bloody dam things wrong with my legs, it's kinda nice to know that at least *one* thing is o.k. Actually the consultant was very complimentary. My dad was unhappy that my legs are kinda weird. See the rest of my body has formed normally and looks like the body of a woman . Unfortunately my legs haven't. the bones are malformed (hey not nice to hear that) and they never will get better. My legs will always be small and the muscles are all undeveloped. My legs will get better with gym work but nope never gona be 'normal' Me not sure if this is good or bad ?? but he did say that I'm doing much more then they *ever* expected. This is true considering they never thought I'd be able to walk and I proved them wrong . See I'm just a stubborn lickle bunny , no way am I gona let my dum legs stop me from fulfilling my life to the best. I don't pay them to act that like wossies - I expect them to keep up and get on with it. Actually the constant said anyone who can run into my consultancy room that fast - I somehow don't think I;d say they were abnormal despite what the medical records say. She's gona lead a very productive and normal life. DAM RIGHT ! You watch I'm planning a bungy jump off London Bridge (o.k. I'm exaggerating but you get the point !) Anyway I have to go back next year as they wanna take pics of my hips and feet and decide what is the best way forward to prevent the knee getting worse and make my walking better. Apparently there's loads of options and he didn't want to confirm any of them as some have long recovery periods and can be dangerous, due to the underdevelopment of the bones. I'll have to choose my treatment in conjunction with them. I said hey I'm 27 years old, I have a job I have responsibilities I'm not bloody 18 anymore I have a life and I'm dam as hell if I'm gona let you looney men in white cotes dictate what I'm gona have down to me. he laughed ! actually he was dead sweet he answered all my questions, listened to my dad's pigeon English ( no really my dad speaks bloody awful English but I *love* him) and he answered all his worries. So in all I'm happy with what they've said to me. Not entirely chuffed at what they've done to my knew. They took the bandage of and yuck !! ok if you're squeamish don't read this bit ........ but it has loads of bruises every where and cuts all over it. the worse thing is the wounds let by the endoscopy into my knee (flashy term for shoving a miniature camera into my knee) I've got this cool puncture marks that look like they've shoved a rod into my knee, not a big one obviously. My brother said they make tree little incisions into your knee which I guess is what they are. Anyway one of them hasn't healed yet so it was bleeding when they pulled the stitches off (yuck!) so they got the sister to put a lovely waterproof dressing on (o.k. flashy term for plaster!) anyway I can finally have a bath tonight so I'll wash it thoroughly , maybe then it'll look better. besides I'm going somewhere this weekend that I don't want the other person to see the scars Yuck!
Anyway after that I went to work . It was a good day. I finally got rid of that major big e-mail complaint. Had to run it passed my boss Natalie b4 I sent it. which leads me to the tip of the day - never give your boss something to proof read without spell checking it 1st !! It's always so much fun when you get it back with spelling mistakes pointed out to you. Oh yes v professional Lisa, doh! Natalie came over to my e-mail box and set it up to auto spell check b4 it send an e-mail. Gee thanks ! Now I feel like a primary school kid ! hey it's not my fault I'm not the world's best typist for God's sake ! I loved the way she then proceed me to convince me she had it on her's too 'cause she also makes typos' nahhhh come on she's *the* boss come on she doesn't make mistakes right ??? *lol*
Oh well at least she liked the e-mail I wrote so that was good. I'm getting the hang of this complaints malarkey I'm telling you.
By the way I've talked to Morena and no she's not going away this weekend so I guess I am going to El's and Brighton this weekend. I'm not sure whether this is such a fab idea. Donno why I always half expect her family to have a council of priest's waiting for me and they're gona keep me prisoner in the house until I renounce my gayness. Boy hang on and I thought my dad *was* paranoid !!! woah think I win that award tonight. I don't know I guess I'm just nervous about meeting her family and I allow my fear to get the better of me. really don't know why 'cause o.k. apart from the fact that they don't like the fact that I'm gay and think I'm gona lead their nice little girl astray, they're really nice people. ok I've only met her dad but hey he *really* is nice . Stop laughing he really is. Besides Nina ( a mutual friend who know her family *really* well, she goes to El's father's church) says the family is really nice and I should stop worrying, it'll be fine. I guess part of my nerves is down to the fact that I'm effectively meeting the parents of my lover. You know like when you go to meet your boyfriends/girlfriends parents it's always never racking, well doubly more so when they don't know your lovers and you have been for *ages* Just gona be mega careful what I say and do around them as I really don't want them to find out. Just cause they'd kill me and case havoc for El. besides I've said it a million times I don't want her to be torn between her family and me. I want her to be happy and family are always more important then a lover as lovers come and go family should be for life . Anyway I'm kinda looking forward to it, if nothing else I get to spend quality time with el, and I get to meet her family - so I can get that bit out of the way. I just want them to like me and for me to be able to visit more often and for her to be able to come and stay at my house without them freaking out. I wouldn't mind also
knocking down any prejudism they have about homosexuality and to show them I'm really not a threat and that I lover their daughter v much and I'd *never* do anything to hurt her. She really does mean the world to me. She was being v sweet today. She sent me loads of emails and I got two ecards. One of them telling me just who much she 's missing me right now. *sweet* I didn't tell her that *though* I guess I fell a little exasperated sometimes as she can be a total bitch to me and throw everything back in my face and then she'll come out with a comment like I love you and miss you and I'll melt. All the barriers I'd put up and promised that I wouldn't get involved again fade totally when I see her , when I hold her in my arms , when I smell her sweet sent , when I feel her warmth. She just seduces me so easily. Which is hilarious considering she's younger then me. o.k. only by two years b4 I start sounding like a cradle snatcher ! I do lover her. So we'll see how it goes. I think being in Brighton , a v gay city, might help her to relax and we might get the chance to be couply again. She's always so brilliant with me when we go to the gay pub in Charring Cross road in London. That's the place we went one night and she just couldn't' keep her hands off. She kissed me all night, I mean deep passionate kissed and at one point I was sitting on her lap. Argggg it was brilliant I loved it (obviously) no I'm not telling you what else we've done - this isn't a porno entry !!! ;-) You'll have to get your kicks somewhere else ! Well anyway I do lover her even if I'm playing a little hard to get right now, although the main reason I don't email her as much is due to the fact I'm so busy but it was sweet when she said she was missing them.
anyway I'm off to have a bath now , then I'm gona have a hot mug of chocolate and bed ! Yum !
Anyway after that I went to work . It was a good day. I finally got rid of that major big e-mail complaint. Had to run it passed my boss Natalie b4 I sent it. which leads me to the tip of the day - never give your boss something to proof read without spell checking it 1st !! It's always so much fun when you get it back with spelling mistakes pointed out to you. Oh yes v professional Lisa, doh! Natalie came over to my e-mail box and set it up to auto spell check b4 it send an e-mail. Gee thanks ! Now I feel like a primary school kid ! hey it's not my fault I'm not the world's best typist for God's sake ! I loved the way she then proceed me to convince me she had it on her's too 'cause she also makes typos' nahhhh come on she's *the* boss come on she doesn't make mistakes right ??? *lol*
Oh well at least she liked the e-mail I wrote so that was good. I'm getting the hang of this complaints malarkey I'm telling you.
By the way I've talked to Morena and no she's not going away this weekend so I guess I am going to El's and Brighton this weekend. I'm not sure whether this is such a fab idea. Donno why I always half expect her family to have a council of priest's waiting for me and they're gona keep me prisoner in the house until I renounce my gayness. Boy hang on and I thought my dad *was* paranoid !!! woah think I win that award tonight. I don't know I guess I'm just nervous about meeting her family and I allow my fear to get the better of me. really don't know why 'cause o.k. apart from the fact that they don't like the fact that I'm gay and think I'm gona lead their nice little girl astray, they're really nice people. ok I've only met her dad but hey he *really* is nice . Stop laughing he really is. Besides Nina ( a mutual friend who know her family *really* well, she goes to El's father's church) says the family is really nice and I should stop worrying, it'll be fine. I guess part of my nerves is down to the fact that I'm effectively meeting the parents of my lover. You know like when you go to meet your boyfriends/girlfriends parents it's always never racking, well doubly more so when they don't know your lovers and you have been for *ages* Just gona be mega careful what I say and do around them as I really don't want them to find out. Just cause they'd kill me and case havoc for El. besides I've said it a million times I don't want her to be torn between her family and me. I want her to be happy and family are always more important then a lover as lovers come and go family should be for life . Anyway I'm kinda looking forward to it, if nothing else I get to spend quality time with el, and I get to meet her family - so I can get that bit out of the way. I just want them to like me and for me to be able to visit more often and for her to be able to come and stay at my house without them freaking out. I wouldn't mind also
knocking down any prejudism they have about homosexuality and to show them I'm really not a threat and that I lover their daughter v much and I'd *never* do anything to hurt her. She really does mean the world to me. She was being v sweet today. She sent me loads of emails and I got two ecards. One of them telling me just who much she 's missing me right now. *sweet* I didn't tell her that *though* I guess I fell a little exasperated sometimes as she can be a total bitch to me and throw everything back in my face and then she'll come out with a comment like I love you and miss you and I'll melt. All the barriers I'd put up and promised that I wouldn't get involved again fade totally when I see her , when I hold her in my arms , when I smell her sweet sent , when I feel her warmth. She just seduces me so easily. Which is hilarious considering she's younger then me. o.k. only by two years b4 I start sounding like a cradle snatcher ! I do lover her. So we'll see how it goes. I think being in Brighton , a v gay city, might help her to relax and we might get the chance to be couply again. She's always so brilliant with me when we go to the gay pub in Charring Cross road in London. That's the place we went one night and she just couldn't' keep her hands off. She kissed me all night, I mean deep passionate kissed and at one point I was sitting on her lap. Argggg it was brilliant I loved it (obviously) no I'm not telling you what else we've done - this isn't a porno entry !!! ;-) You'll have to get your kicks somewhere else ! Well anyway I do lover her even if I'm playing a little hard to get right now, although the main reason I don't email her as much is due to the fact I'm so busy but it was sweet when she said she was missing them.
anyway I'm off to have a bath now , then I'm gona have a hot mug of chocolate and bed ! Yum !