future...
i really don't know what's wrong with me. somethings changed.. but i'm not sure what. i know there are some people who will probably think i'm crazy, but after a few years of living with all the pain that i've kept inside me for all this time, i'm going to get rid of it by starting my life over again. i've decided that after high school i'm going to move away. i'm not sure where or how, but i'm going to start all over again. now i know what you're all thinking "that's not crazy" but to tell you the truth that's not all. i'm going to forget everything. i'm going to stop being with my family, friends and just people. i know that may sound nuts, but there are things in my life now that are happening that won't allow me to care for anyone unless i put them at risk. so ya... i know a lot of people won't understand now, but later on i hope you will. i'm just giving a long notice so that it has time to sink in. well that's about it for now. later days.