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I can't sleep. I keep thinking I hear my brother moving around the house or saying something and it wakes me up. I feel so lonely. Its so quiet, and creepy. I'm acting like he's like, REALLY gone or something, I'm pathetic. I didn't know someone moving out would be this hard. I guess when you no longer have someone around who is pretty much your best friend and that you can talk to all the time, it really hurts. I just hope he is making the right decision and nothing bad happens to him. I don't know if I'll ever stop thinking about it. I guess that we've really formed a special bond over the years, one that I did not realize existed until the past couple of days, really. I didn't think I'd ever cry because he wouldn't be around, or that I'd feel so empty and lost because my brother moved to a different state. I guess it'll take some getting used to, and hopefully I will feel like the normal me again, because I don't want to feel like this for a long time. I hope we stay in touch, and talk a lot..I'd feel very bad if its any other way. I'm really worried about Tigger and whether or not she'll be ok. She hasn't left his room at all since he left..and she just lays on his bed. I think she believes he's coming home soon, and I don't know how to get a cat to realize someone isn't going to be coming back any time soon. Please God, just protect my brother and make sure that he's alright, just let him be happy, let us all be happy, and don't let anything happen to him. Please don't let him be hurt, physically or emotionally, and let him realize what makes him truly happy. I just don't know what to think or do, really. Everything involved with my house makes me sad right now because it makes me think of him in some way. It shouldn't be like this.