May 07, 2005 05:49
Realizing that you truly love someone is possibly the most frightening and wonderful experience rolled into one. Amazing the sub-emotions that love can make a person feel. I guess what they say is true...true love is something you're never able to forget, ever. I know I wouldn't be able to forget Jessica in the least if something were to happen. She's definitely the one for me, so I can't screw up, thats a lot of pressure, ya know?
I think my brother is planning on moving to Texas? I'm still not really clear about what his plans are. Everything was so sudden and out of the blue. I just fear that he's gonna make a mistake if he does move down there. Spending a week with someone is a lot different than living with them or being around them all the time. I don't know, I hope it works out for him, but its also rather weird to think that my brother won't be involved in my life if he does or is moving, whatever. 23 years of constantly having someone around, kind of an odd, sad feeling to think they won't be there. My brother is one of two true "friends" I have (friends is in quotations because the two are my brother and my girlfriend) I doubt many who read this know that I'm not a person who needs lots of friends, only those I can really trust and thats about it for me. I have other "friends" and aquaintences, enough to go around, but not someone thats a true friend. I dunno, the situation kind of makes me sad, it'll be weird getting used to.