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I wanted to start this year off right. I wanted it to be great. I was a lot happier right before I came here and thought this year would be much better if I would just have a brighter outlook on things.
shot down. The first time I'm actually fucking direct with someone I get along with.
it hurts.
I guess I'll get over it.
But then again...why is it so important for me to assure you, that while I’m expressing the truth of my despair, that I am also fine, really. It’s like-I don’t want pity, and I don’t want help. I don’t want someone to assume that because I have pain that I’m somehow less, less strong or less able. Why do we assume that pain makes someone damaged?
...I want mostly to be understood. I want someone to say YES-I get it, I am both of those too. I can be happy with life, excited about the prospect that I have so much to live for. And I can also fall into periods of sadness and yes, pain.
Are people just afraid that feeling pain will cause them to be vulnerable?
shot down. The first time I'm actually fucking direct with someone I get along with.
it hurts.
I guess I'll get over it.
But then again...why is it so important for me to assure you, that while I’m expressing the truth of my despair, that I am also fine, really. It’s like-I don’t want pity, and I don’t want help. I don’t want someone to assume that because I have pain that I’m somehow less, less strong or less able. Why do we assume that pain makes someone damaged?
...I want mostly to be understood. I want someone to say YES-I get it, I am both of those too. I can be happy with life, excited about the prospect that I have so much to live for. And I can also fall into periods of sadness and yes, pain.
Are people just afraid that feeling pain will cause them to be vulnerable?