And thats what you get for falling again..
I did it to myself again. I promised after the last time I wouldnt allow it to happen again. I cant hate what happened, but i can regret it and i can hate myself for it. I hate how i crumble so easily, how i allow for these things to overtake me. I hate how i so willingly let it happen over and over again. I guess i just hope that one day i can actually succeed, find something,someone that won't dissapoint me. But i guess its hard wishing.
I mean what is it about me that makes me so undesireable? i watch friends play with minds and get what they want, but it just never works out for me. i get used, pushed aside and i'm not mad that it happens. I'm mad that i let it happen. i'm just sick of it all. I;m sick of the stress, the drama, and i;m through with the waiting. i just want this shit to end so i can get on with my life and live it.
I mean what is it about me that makes me so undesireable? i watch friends play with minds and get what they want, but it just never works out for me. i get used, pushed aside and i'm not mad that it happens. I'm mad that i let it happen. i'm just sick of it all. I;m sick of the stress, the drama, and i;m through with the waiting. i just want this shit to end so i can get on with my life and live it.