And i cant stand the pain, and i can't make it go away..
Is it possible to be this stressed out senior year?
Applications are due, i have tests every damn day, projects, massive amounts of homework, and just no time for any of the little things that i used to enjoy...for god sakes i can feel myself getting sick over it too.. i'm always tired, i havent eaten correctly in about 3 weeks.. i feel like im wasting away into nothing.. oh and that freedom that one would call a driver's liscense.. well it sucks.. not only are you made the driver all the time, but you become people's personal bitch and it's infuriating because i don't have time for a job and close to no money so i cant even afford gas..
and most of all.. I truly miss my best friend and the relationship we used to have before everything got so fucked up. I miss her so much it hurts. I mean, she's still there, but there is this strain on our relationship and its noticeable friction. Abd I try to fix it, i really do. but i'm human and i fuck up. i want to be the old me that she liked, not the new me that she has come to dislike.. i'm sorry, i really am and i miss you, i really do.
i thought i had everything that i always wanted.. well obviously i was wrong
.... i just really want things to be okay again.. i want things normal.. i want to feel better, is that too much that i'm asking for?...
great, now i'm crying and it sucks
Applications are due, i have tests every damn day, projects, massive amounts of homework, and just no time for any of the little things that i used to enjoy...for god sakes i can feel myself getting sick over it too.. i'm always tired, i havent eaten correctly in about 3 weeks.. i feel like im wasting away into nothing.. oh and that freedom that one would call a driver's liscense.. well it sucks.. not only are you made the driver all the time, but you become people's personal bitch and it's infuriating because i don't have time for a job and close to no money so i cant even afford gas..
and most of all.. I truly miss my best friend and the relationship we used to have before everything got so fucked up. I miss her so much it hurts. I mean, she's still there, but there is this strain on our relationship and its noticeable friction. Abd I try to fix it, i really do. but i'm human and i fuck up. i want to be the old me that she liked, not the new me that she has come to dislike.. i'm sorry, i really am and i miss you, i really do.
i thought i had everything that i always wanted.. well obviously i was wrong
.... i just really want things to be okay again.. i want things normal.. i want to feel better, is that too much that i'm asking for?...
great, now i'm crying and it sucks