SCARY....
School started on thursday, and today is saturday, but from what i can tell it looks like school will be a challenge but also a breeze this year. so its all good. i dont have mrs castillo and i dont have mrs moonsinghe so thank god... but i do have mrs taylor but i think i can handle her bitch ass. after school on thursday i hung out with claire. cause it was super bomb seeing her again. but i get the feeling that when i hang out with her and her friends, it feels like im an outkast, they look at me as if they wonder why im there with them. that makes me uncomfortable, when people dont want you there yet, one person does, and it just feels so akward. claire if your reading this, i read your note and i really want to hang out with you again. i had fun, and no i didnt want to punch you, and i dont know how you got that thought in ur mind but get it out. cause i love you way to much to punch or hurt you. if we do end up hanging out lets watch amelie cause its been ages since we planned that out. anyways... today i got high and i hadnt smoked in about two days, yet for some reason i got real stoned, and i dont know why, so stoned i was freaking out and trippin out, and i dont know why it was kinda scary. i want to stop smoking pot but here is the thing, when i dont smoke pot, i get hyper, and my brain cant focus on one perticular thing making homework hard to do. yet when i smoke pot i feel calm and relaxed. yet i lose my memory and learning homework is a bitch. so i dont know what to do. i cant do both cause it was just make things worse. so i need to deciede soon on what the fuck im going to do. shit this sucks. well im going to go cause theres supposed to be an earthquake tomorrow, so if anything happens... i love you all!