I'm giving you everything, all that joy can bring..
I haven't written in forever. I don't know; it was like over summer there was no time really, or maybe cause my laptop didn't have internet, I don't know.. whatevs though.
So I'm back at school-- have been since like the second week of September. I'm in an apartment this year. I absolutley love it. And I love my roommates (there's three of us); we're so fun and we laugh a lot and I just love it. I live with Meaghan, which I was a little worried about cause I didn't want it to like ruin our friendship or anything, but so far so good. We haven't argued at all I don't think. So knock on wood, I think we're gonna be just dandy.
So like my last post (in like July haha) says, everything turned out to be worth it. Which of course is with the boy.
It really did turn out to be worth every second of it. I remember exactly how I felt writing those posts about being hurt and confused and everything; it was such a horrible time for me. I had no idea what was going to happen and I was so afraid that what I was hoping for wasn't going to happen. But it did.
And I am so fucking happy. My life is amazing. Summer was amazing. I loved every second of it. There were ups and downs of course, but for the vast majority I was just happy and loving life.
Looking back, I honestly cannot believe that things worked out so well. I'm so thankful of course that it did, but I never would have expected me to be as happy as I am right now.
I thought that if the boy and I did start dating, yeah it would be great but what about after summer? And yes summer was beyond great, like I said, I loved every second of it. And we're still together. I honestly would not have expected that. He was so into not having a girlfriend at school and whatever. But I don't know, I guess something changed, and I'm grateful. The kid is amazing, and I don't know what I'd do without him now. I'm not saying it isn't hard now, because believe me, it is so hard being so far away from each other. I honestly hate that. But I was just telling someone this past weekend that yeah, it sucks and is hard, but you have to think about whether or not its worth it. And it is, for me at least. We talk every night and It's been like every two weeks we see each other. Which is doable. I miss him like crazy all the time, but like I said, he's worth it I think. I love being with him so I'll fight for it.
And speaking of seeing him-- I get to see him this weekend! Yay! I cannot wait.
I should really go do something productive though... boo
Until next time....
So I'm back at school-- have been since like the second week of September. I'm in an apartment this year. I absolutley love it. And I love my roommates (there's three of us); we're so fun and we laugh a lot and I just love it. I live with Meaghan, which I was a little worried about cause I didn't want it to like ruin our friendship or anything, but so far so good. We haven't argued at all I don't think. So knock on wood, I think we're gonna be just dandy.
So like my last post (in like July haha) says, everything turned out to be worth it. Which of course is with the boy.
It really did turn out to be worth every second of it. I remember exactly how I felt writing those posts about being hurt and confused and everything; it was such a horrible time for me. I had no idea what was going to happen and I was so afraid that what I was hoping for wasn't going to happen. But it did.
And I am so fucking happy. My life is amazing. Summer was amazing. I loved every second of it. There were ups and downs of course, but for the vast majority I was just happy and loving life.
Looking back, I honestly cannot believe that things worked out so well. I'm so thankful of course that it did, but I never would have expected me to be as happy as I am right now.
I thought that if the boy and I did start dating, yeah it would be great but what about after summer? And yes summer was beyond great, like I said, I loved every second of it. And we're still together. I honestly would not have expected that. He was so into not having a girlfriend at school and whatever. But I don't know, I guess something changed, and I'm grateful. The kid is amazing, and I don't know what I'd do without him now. I'm not saying it isn't hard now, because believe me, it is so hard being so far away from each other. I honestly hate that. But I was just telling someone this past weekend that yeah, it sucks and is hard, but you have to think about whether or not its worth it. And it is, for me at least. We talk every night and It's been like every two weeks we see each other. Which is doable. I miss him like crazy all the time, but like I said, he's worth it I think. I love being with him so I'll fight for it.
And speaking of seeing him-- I get to see him this weekend! Yay! I cannot wait.
I should really go do something productive though... boo
Until next time....