Another new year.
If you spent your life concentrating on what everyone else thought of you, would you forget who you really were? What if the face you showed the world turned out to be a mask... with nothing beneath it?
Happy new year, everyone. What are you expecting this 2009?
2008 was a pretty emotional year for me. I made more foolish mistakes, discovered myself, felt empowerment & demoralization, found love, changed my life, realized I was getting old and I'll be facing serious responsibilities...
I can't really grow up and grow out of being young and crazy. It's me to be young and crazy. But I guess I've made minor changes that could lead to big movements for my future. Good or bad? I don't know how to decide. Do I like it though? Hmm.. Moderation should do me some good, I suppose.
They say life isn't about discovering yourself, but creating yourself. But that only happens if you know who you want to be.
I've always thought I knew who I want to be, or at the very least, who I am. Until I realise I don't really have answers, only more questions. How do you decide for yourself? When you want everything, when you can't, and finally, you just want nothing.
You don't really just stop. You wait.
For enlightenment. In your friends. In people you love. In yourself.
I guess it's okay for me to feel this way. I am turning 21 in 9 months, as crazy as that sounds. Well, one foot in front of the other, and I'll find my way somehow.