coz im sleepy na... and it's 4pm pa lang, so reflect muna
here's the thing:
i become motivated and driven when im angry. motivated on just about anything. id do whatever needs to be done. kikilos ako.
but when im angry, im unpleasant.
you could say that the anger flames my desires and my will.
and thinking about it, it seems that i cant separate them.
when im relaxed, indifferent, in denial, blocking/controlling my passion, and relatively not angry, i become complacent and lazy.
but when im angry, i feel like i can do anything.
it's a dilemma for me because i struggle with my temper. most often, i deal with this temper by supressing it to the point of trying to be indifferent.
and without that feeling, i just dont do.
maybe its how im supposed to move in the world, to find something to get pissed off about for me to move on it or on something.
i become motivated and driven when im angry. motivated on just about anything. id do whatever needs to be done. kikilos ako.
but when im angry, im unpleasant.
you could say that the anger flames my desires and my will.
and thinking about it, it seems that i cant separate them.
when im relaxed, indifferent, in denial, blocking/controlling my passion, and relatively not angry, i become complacent and lazy.
but when im angry, i feel like i can do anything.
it's a dilemma for me because i struggle with my temper. most often, i deal with this temper by supressing it to the point of trying to be indifferent.
and without that feeling, i just dont do.
maybe its how im supposed to move in the world, to find something to get pissed off about for me to move on it or on something.