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[hyperchick778]

So. Another ###### day/night. Missed another meeting. Didnt even cross my mind really to be honest. So my new roomie and me went to her storage unit to grab some stuff-including her weed. Smoked a joint, went back to the house.Got ahold of chris and went out with him for like 20 mins but then found out he had no money or food so i went home for dinner, then talked him into letting my roomie come with me to see him cuz his roomie had finally left. She apparently really needed sex and she was willing to give him a bj whereas i wasnt so i figured what the hell right? So we get there, smoke another joint and started pounding back beers. Again, I went to the washroom(always seems to #### the nite for me-GODDAMN BLADDER) and i come back and shes sucking him off. Well,i shouldve rly expected it but i guess i didnt, again i was only gone for like 5 mins if that but it was a total harsh flashback to dalton and amanda that i couldnt handle so i bolted.I sat outside chainsmoking and texting ppl my woes. They both came out and tried to get me to come back inside and i was like yeah whatever...i finally came in to use the washroom again and heard them #######, apparently he had given er 6 ####### by this point *sighs*. So once again i #### myself out of a good ####, my biggest fantasy. So stupid, but u dont think rational when ur pissed. Eventually they finished and chris came out to use te washroom himself and i went into his room. She was naked, but put clothes on to go have a smoke and another joint with me. We went back in...i was very drunk/stoned by that point i was slurring and swaying and everything else. But it seemed they were both satisfied so when we went back into the room nothing happened but a little cuddling and boob rubbing between my roomie and i. We finally left after i demanded the $20 he had promised me if i would suck him off because my roomie wouldnt take it. Hey, I dont give a #### where the money comes from. I tried to talk her into goin downtown but she was "too tired"... expect she knew exactly where i was going-to do crack-and she didnt want to have any part of it. Well she was right, after we dropped her off and went back to get my pipe i got dropped off at the rose garden, which was dead, so i went down the stroll with some guy, and to macs. Ran into another chick from the shelter and shared the 10 piece i paid $20 for with her cuz apparently her bf just commited suicide and she found the body so i figured she could use some, plus its much nicer to be doing it with someone else than alone. I just gave her seconds anyways, no skin off my back really. We got a bit more here and there...aparently she got harsh ripped off for over $400 bucks so that sucks. We eventually gave up, went to macs, and who do i run into but my old ######### buddy. She had returned the pipe at least, but still owed me $10 but when i went to say hi to her she just held a finger to her lips in a shushing motion and smiled. I was like wow...#### u i cant even say hi to u now? I was so pissed. Personally, i hope the cops catch her. She was supposed to be in by 9 and now shes not here at all and they found that out tonite when they went to escort some other chick off the property who was being threatened or whatever. So i hope she gets caught. #### her. Shes done nothing really for me. Anyways, we called a cab and of course had no money for it...its already after 11. When we got there i just ran inside, the other chick said she'd deal with it however she had to(she had said last time she just sucked the guy off or whatever haha #### she was tryin to do that all nite for crack but no luck) and that was that. They let us inthank god cuz i phoned and told them we were waiting for a cab and they said we had tll quarter after so that was good. Anyways, so i relasped again and i dont even really care. Im too pissed off and frustrated to care.

PS-Chapterofmylife? i thought u listed me as a friend...but i cant reply on ur entries...