summer
wow summer has been really cool so far. i have been extremely busy, told the boy i like that i like him, hung with friends till all hours of the night, made new friends (Chris), stayed up really late and tonight i am going swimming at my grandmas with my 2 best buddies. i love summer. oh ya and in like 2 weeks i am going to lake havasu with my family and a few of their friends. life is great right now i just wish that i could have a guy in it to share all this fun-ness with. i know that isnt a real word but oh well. i feel lonely sometimes. i see all these girls out with there boyfriends and i just think am i really missing out on a lot? and i answer my own question with hell yea. it is so hard ot like a guy and know that you cant have them. lauren, me and you are in the same boat. jenna, you are lucky to have someone who likes you. we dont even have that. it sux. but i just look ahead and think about one day when i will have the perfect man and the perfect famiy with him. but i want that man to come now. right this instant. you know i ahve never really been in a real relationship. i havent had a boyfriend since the 8th grade. now how depressing is that. i mean even irma has a boyfriend and she is butt ugly and smells. but oh well some guys like very nasty girls. but i just to be loved by someone, not my friends or my family, someone who loves me in the special way, who will never let go of me and love me for who i am. well now that i vented all that i am gonna get ready to leave to go swimming. see you soon lauren and jenna. bye