older=alone=death
in my ROC class, we go to convelesent homes and take care of the old people. its crazy how u can get so attached to people you've only known for 4 days. I was talking to one of my residents and she was telling me about how shes been alone ever since she way 74 and she use to lay in her bed at night alone and wonder if she would have a stroke or a heart attack. i felt so bad for her, shes really sweet. then there is Mr. Dollar who is the sweatest guy ive ever met, hes my grandpa, or so he says, which is awesome because i dont have a grandpa, but, he has a massiv bad case of cancer that is spreading thru his body.....Judith rocks. she was in a fire when she was little and never got married. shes really confused but can hold a conversation with people and i went in the activity room to talk to her and they had oldie music on and she was dancing with me, then a song came on that she remembered when she was little and she said "im going to cry" and i ran over to her and gave her a huge ass hug and she said "thank you honey, god bless you to hevan" i was like AWWWWWW. its so depressing though. tomorrow is my 18th b-day and after ive been going to this old person home, i dont want to get older. im scared of being put in those places and being alone and no one coming to visit me..im scared of not getting married and having someone. i came home yesturday and started crying because i was so depressed, not just b/c of my b-day comeing, but b/c of all those old people being alone and stuff. i dont want to be alone