What's next
How do you start again after a serious failure? No, I know the general advice - learn from it, reflect on it, move on, be a better person, etc etc. The problem is, as always, is that it's not so easy to do, at least for me. Nothing is easy for and nothing has been easy for me. Every little thing is a tragedy, every little slight and challenge is a tragedy, everything gets to me, and nothing is just ignored. All you do all day long is trying to avoid, minimize, mitigate, but the truth is that it's never enough. You cannot hide from everything and you cannot change the way you respond and react.