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Five months until my fonons start separating again. After that, I'll probably die. That is, if Jade and Dist can't figure out how to fix it. I want believe in them, I really do... but... what if they really can't do anything?
I said to Tear that if I could bring back Akzeriuth by dying, I would... but I didn't know what I was saying then. For the longest time I've felt like I didn't have the right to exist, because I'm a replica. But being here in Avoria, falling in love with Asch, being able to spend so much time with Guy, and make so many new friends... I've started to actually like myself.
I don't... I don't want to die. I've finally found reasons to keep existing. I'm scared. I'm so scared that my body won't stop shaking. I want... to stay here. I want to keep living.
Five months isn't a lot of time... but if there really isn't a way to stop this...
I'll make the most of what I have left.
But I have to stop shaking...
[[All righty.... a Tower of Rem moment for Luke. He tried to make this private but he's so distracted that it's hackable by people who know him and care about him. Why? Because I'm a mean mun.... and Luke deserves comfort...]]
I said to Tear that if I could bring back Akzeriuth by dying, I would... but I didn't know what I was saying then. For the longest time I've felt like I didn't have the right to exist, because I'm a replica. But being here in Avoria, falling in love with Asch, being able to spend so much time with Guy, and make so many new friends... I've started to actually like myself.
I don't... I don't want to die. I've finally found reasons to keep existing. I'm scared. I'm so scared that my body won't stop shaking. I want... to stay here. I want to keep living.
Five months isn't a lot of time... but if there really isn't a way to stop this...
I'll make the most of what I have left.
But I have to stop shaking...
[[All righty.... a Tower of Rem moment for Luke. He tried to make this private but he's so distracted that it's hackable by people who know him and care about him. Why? Because I'm a mean mun.... and Luke deserves comfort...]]