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sometimes i can be so pathetic
i feel so trapped and insecure about every single aspect of my life
sometimes i wish i could step outside myself and then shake this shell of a body and go 'WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?!'
i always ruin everything. i always destroy everything. i always fuck up everything. i wish i didnt do stupid irrational things.
i feel like no one wants me around. that might just be me, and the way i've grown up. i dont know.
do you ever have this realization that you just have no one? all of a sudden today i was like "oh shit there is always going to be someone better than me" and i just couldnt help but cry. and then i just wished i could fucking kick my ass because i REFUSE to be my 7th grade self again. but. it's all here.
i feel so trapped and insecure about every single aspect of my life
sometimes i wish i could step outside myself and then shake this shell of a body and go 'WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?!'
i always ruin everything. i always destroy everything. i always fuck up everything. i wish i didnt do stupid irrational things.
i feel like no one wants me around. that might just be me, and the way i've grown up. i dont know.
do you ever have this realization that you just have no one? all of a sudden today i was like "oh shit there is always going to be someone better than me" and i just couldnt help but cry. and then i just wished i could fucking kick my ass because i REFUSE to be my 7th grade self again. but. it's all here.