bored and pissed
ok...i need to rant for a minute. i also want to warn u of the length of this post. very long.
RANT:ok...so earlier on today me and shan were talking about going to the mall. i called stephanie to see if she wanted to go. no answer. i was starving, went to get food at wendy's. took a little longer than i thought. got back, kaleigh asks me if i wanna go. i say yes thinking my mom will still let me. stupid me. how couldnt i have known that after a half hour my mom changed her mind? i dont know. it must be my stupidity. so i ask her if she can give us a ride home. she says: "y are u going? i'm tired and have been owkring in the yard all day. its 8 now and it closes by 10. whats the point? i really dont think u should." i somewhat protested. i tell shan and kaleigh that i cant. shan asks if i could if she gave me a ride home. i ask. she says i would prefer it if u didnt go. i tell them i cant. we are all sad. i dont get it. do you? if u do, please explain. my mom has been in a funny mood all day. she yells at me for ding nothing but laundry and homework. i ask here what she wants me to do. she says laundry and homework. i dont get it. maybe she was having a bad day. shes had those once and a while snince my grandma died. if thats the case i guess i can understand that she doesnt want to be alone tongiht. shes been very "snippy" lately. maybe shes having a bad week? i dont know. i just dont want to be lied to. if she didnt want to be alone, just tell me. dont make excuses. now i feel horrible that i bailed (unwillingly so) on kaleigh and shan. i feel horrid. anyother day would have been fine. i couldve given them rides home and i couldve gone to the mall. what makes today different? when they give me rides i feel bad cuz they live in bradford, and when they give me rides, they have to go out of their way to get me. i need a lisence. i need friends who live in haverhill. i need friends with lisences. maybe its just me. i dont knoow.
UPDATE:ok. went to boston with molly on friday. super fun! went on the train early. went shopping at downtwon crossing. spent 70 bucks somehow...still trying to figure that out...bought a funky skirt at rainbow(a very cool store) along with red sweat pants for dance and lougning. bought a wite sweater, funky socks, and a cute strapless dress at filenes basement for 20 bucks. very nice deals there and brand names cltohes. pretty thirfty. i was gonna wera the dress tongiht.
MORE:going to canobie tomorrow with my cousins. should be fun. cant wait.
...:banged my elbow on the desk a little earlier today. kinda hurts like a bitch now. kinda weird.
YET MORE:went to dee's house earlier. danielle found the cutest kitten in the barn of her work. its a little thing. she decided to keep her. named her olivia. very cute...i think its a calico. they think that cat is between 8-10 weeks, but i think shes much younger. maybe she is as old as they think and is just small structured. i dont pretend to be a cat expert.
AGAIN:went to steph's house on thursday night. kaleigh, stefan, ian, meg, and steph & her sister were there. it was a fun time. stefan got his liscence on tuesday. when i called my mom to pick me up, he said he would have given me a ride home, but couldnt. i understand. i dont think i would have given anyone a ride home either. ic ant wait til its legal since he lives like a minute away from me and is the closest friend that lives near me. my mom wont have to chauffeur me around.
thats it. gonna try to update my layout. i dont know. we'll see.
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RANT:ok...so earlier on today me and shan were talking about going to the mall. i called stephanie to see if she wanted to go. no answer. i was starving, went to get food at wendy's. took a little longer than i thought. got back, kaleigh asks me if i wanna go. i say yes thinking my mom will still let me. stupid me. how couldnt i have known that after a half hour my mom changed her mind? i dont know. it must be my stupidity. so i ask her if she can give us a ride home. she says: "y are u going? i'm tired and have been owkring in the yard all day. its 8 now and it closes by 10. whats the point? i really dont think u should." i somewhat protested. i tell shan and kaleigh that i cant. shan asks if i could if she gave me a ride home. i ask. she says i would prefer it if u didnt go. i tell them i cant. we are all sad. i dont get it. do you? if u do, please explain. my mom has been in a funny mood all day. she yells at me for ding nothing but laundry and homework. i ask here what she wants me to do. she says laundry and homework. i dont get it. maybe she was having a bad day. shes had those once and a while snince my grandma died. if thats the case i guess i can understand that she doesnt want to be alone tongiht. shes been very "snippy" lately. maybe shes having a bad week? i dont know. i just dont want to be lied to. if she didnt want to be alone, just tell me. dont make excuses. now i feel horrible that i bailed (unwillingly so) on kaleigh and shan. i feel horrid. anyother day would have been fine. i couldve given them rides home and i couldve gone to the mall. what makes today different? when they give me rides i feel bad cuz they live in bradford, and when they give me rides, they have to go out of their way to get me. i need a lisence. i need friends who live in haverhill. i need friends with lisences. maybe its just me. i dont knoow.
UPDATE:ok. went to boston with molly on friday. super fun! went on the train early. went shopping at downtwon crossing. spent 70 bucks somehow...still trying to figure that out...bought a funky skirt at rainbow(a very cool store) along with red sweat pants for dance and lougning. bought a wite sweater, funky socks, and a cute strapless dress at filenes basement for 20 bucks. very nice deals there and brand names cltohes. pretty thirfty. i was gonna wera the dress tongiht.
MORE:going to canobie tomorrow with my cousins. should be fun. cant wait.
...:banged my elbow on the desk a little earlier today. kinda hurts like a bitch now. kinda weird.
YET MORE:went to dee's house earlier. danielle found the cutest kitten in the barn of her work. its a little thing. she decided to keep her. named her olivia. very cute...i think its a calico. they think that cat is between 8-10 weeks, but i think shes much younger. maybe she is as old as they think and is just small structured. i dont pretend to be a cat expert.
AGAIN:went to steph's house on thursday night. kaleigh, stefan, ian, meg, and steph & her sister were there. it was a fun time. stefan got his liscence on tuesday. when i called my mom to pick me up, he said he would have given me a ride home, but couldnt. i understand. i dont think i would have given anyone a ride home either. ic ant wait til its legal since he lives like a minute away from me and is the closest friend that lives near me. my mom wont have to chauffeur me around.
thats it. gonna try to update my layout. i dont know. we'll see.
word!