...So updating AGAIN! decisions suck...
Today I went over to Melissa's new place. It's pretty nice, but they were totally not unpacked at all... so it was a little messy there.
After that, I took a ride over to the rents since I was on that side of town, and no sense wasting gas to come back there again before Tuesday when we are going to a family friend's birthday party. So of course, I told my mom that I was thinking of moving out of my current apartment, since the rent is high ($600), and it is difficult for me to think about saving while paying all these bills on top of the rent. And for backstory, my parents are still helping me out a bit on rent, and I feel like a jackass for still taking money for it. Mainly, it's coming down to me needing to budget my checks so that I can pay off my bills and cancel the Sears and Boston Store cards I have and not worry about any of them anymore.
And today I had to do all I could not to lose it at their house, since I keep thinking about the $40/month pills and it has been really pissing me off. But I really can't break down about that in front of my dad since it would just be odd. My mom would understand sort of I think, but my dad would be like, whhhaat? and all confused like usual. So basically my mom didn't understand exactly why I was stressed...and then of course, she says "you can always move back here" which pisses me off a lot and I think she knows it..
Obviously (especially if you read my posts last year around this time...) looking for apartments stresses me out to the max.. and then there's the actual MOVING. That's even worse. And I love my apartment, but I really don't need to be on this side of town anymore, and in the winter it is going to suck to drive to work from here since it is about 30 min. away by freeway as it is now. Then there's the option of moving in with Matt, which would let us hang out a lot, would give me some added security (y'know, sometimes when you live alone you can't fall asleep cause it's too quiet), and would let us both be able to save up some money. But I'm still apprehensive about it because then I feel like we lose some part of the committment or it becomes less special or something (which is sort of insane to think too...) and it is driving me nuts.
So yeah, basically I need a cheaper place that is closer to Matt and my work so I don't have to drive a lot and can bike more.
Sorry for the negative posts lately, it's probably just me being hormonal stressed out girl again.
xo.
--Jamie
After that, I took a ride over to the rents since I was on that side of town, and no sense wasting gas to come back there again before Tuesday when we are going to a family friend's birthday party. So of course, I told my mom that I was thinking of moving out of my current apartment, since the rent is high ($600), and it is difficult for me to think about saving while paying all these bills on top of the rent. And for backstory, my parents are still helping me out a bit on rent, and I feel like a jackass for still taking money for it. Mainly, it's coming down to me needing to budget my checks so that I can pay off my bills and cancel the Sears and Boston Store cards I have and not worry about any of them anymore.
And today I had to do all I could not to lose it at their house, since I keep thinking about the $40/month pills and it has been really pissing me off. But I really can't break down about that in front of my dad since it would just be odd. My mom would understand sort of I think, but my dad would be like, whhhaat? and all confused like usual. So basically my mom didn't understand exactly why I was stressed...and then of course, she says "you can always move back here" which pisses me off a lot and I think she knows it..
Obviously (especially if you read my posts last year around this time...) looking for apartments stresses me out to the max.. and then there's the actual MOVING. That's even worse. And I love my apartment, but I really don't need to be on this side of town anymore, and in the winter it is going to suck to drive to work from here since it is about 30 min. away by freeway as it is now. Then there's the option of moving in with Matt, which would let us hang out a lot, would give me some added security (y'know, sometimes when you live alone you can't fall asleep cause it's too quiet), and would let us both be able to save up some money. But I'm still apprehensive about it because then I feel like we lose some part of the committment or it becomes less special or something (which is sort of insane to think too...) and it is driving me nuts.
So yeah, basically I need a cheaper place that is closer to Matt and my work so I don't have to drive a lot and can bike more.
Sorry for the negative posts lately, it's probably just me being hormonal stressed out girl again.
xo.
--Jamie