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Hello again, livejournal!
Gone, people, all awkward with their things, gone.
The world and I, we made it to July 2006 (it is a big deal). I couldn't wait until I could reach that moment when I'd be able say "I graduated, so here's to a brand new direction in life". Of course, I didn't plan on anything too drastic to turn my life a full 180 (I'm only out of high school). I'm in that state of contentment, that I only usually feel on a Friday night, off work, hanging out with good friends ... but since it's summer, it's like this everyday! It's amazing how much perspective you can gain in a month. I'm happy to say that I've seen a lot of new sides to some of the friends I thought I knew best. Whether good, or bad, it was refreshing just because I know that the whole phenomenon of 'growing up' and 'change' is charging through everyone's veins, and I'm happy for them. Late nights at the beach watching an orange moon go down are only enjoyable just because I know I can sleep in until 1:30pm the next day without persecution. Sitting around a table surrounded by a group of old friends is so reassuring, and trading secrets knowing that you can trust them after 3 - 4 years of a friendship hiatus is amazing. Yeah, you hear a lot of talk about the "power of true love and friendship", but you don't really appreciate it until a) it's gone, or b) you experience it yourself. Fortunately, I haven't lost anything I wouldn't want to live without. I can count with two hands, people who have inspired me, or left me in awe within the last month... basically just because they're amazing as human beings. The times when I met life with a weak battle front, I didn't even have to ask, and they flipped things around. I've had songs sang to me, letters written stating "Your parents must be terrorists cause you're the bomb!" haha (ego-boost!? I♥Janelle), I've been out to lunch catching up. As of late, shifts at work are really forcing me to keep track of the days, but as long as I have one day off to sleep, and chill with the cats, I'm good.
At this point, it's pretty much smooth sailing from here. After putting much effort into a lot of things for the past year, I wasn't disappointed with the end results for the most of it. I had two classes in grade 12 that left me wondering whether or not I'd even end up graduating though, yes it was that horrible. Graduation rolled around, and I loved it because 1) Those I love was there to cheer me on, and 2) I was so proud of all my classmates. I ended up getting Ontario Scholars, which means that I scored a place on honour roll again. I was happy to see that my final avrg was much better than expected. I also left grad with the Cardinal Newman Scholarship, which was a happy extra for me. After receiving my report card, I had to wait for one more thing to satisfy my academic life which came a few days later. I found out that my application for a deferral to York U. was accepted, and now I'm enrolled for the 07 - 08 year instead of next. That was a relief, at least all that stress about which course to take wasn't for nothing back in November. Now that I have an extra year to think about it, I'm definitely considering U of T seriously, so we'll see how that turns out. That closes the book on academics for now, though I have no idea how I'll take not being in school for a whole year. I'm eagerly looking forward to next year's 9 month adventure around the country, it gives me goose bumps just thinking about it. Meanwhile, I wish I could help out more often with the kittens at The Humane Society. They're amazing, and just looking at them makes you want to hug everyone in sight and tell them "it's okay, mommy's here, shh shh, and she wuvs you so so much!".
AND, my teeth are getting sore from clenching them together so tight when I see cuteness. hahahhaha
In other news, a lot is happening with the home life as well. I avoided being around the family while they were having their serious adult discussions which I should have participated in because I'm cool and 18, but I always slinked away into my own world. Not knowing served as a protective shield, and so long as I was oblivious to what was going on, I was able to hold off the finality of what was happening. Safe to say that even though some things were rough around the edges, all the talks smoothed it out, and some changes are coming our way in the next couple of months. I'm much-o excited, but I'll be gone while everyone else is reaping the benefits. I know it's important to nurture relationships at home, so that every other relationship you encounter away from mom and dad's protective wing, is healthy too. Expressing myself with people I hold close to heart is very important, but sometimes it was hard to take in their advice on certain things, especially when they weren't the ones confronting 1 000 000 + 1 new emotions at the same time.
Life isn't always full of posies and blue skies, and I knew that from the start. I appreciate being aware and informed of what's going on, so when people aren't honest with me, it sucks. Things are just right, but sometimes even when I'm feeling light as a feather with contentment, memories just go over me like water over dry ground. The damage is done, so I guess I just left. Everything's looking up for me right now, but it is definitely unfortunate that sometimes when life happens .. shit happens, and best friends split. While I lay down tanning one time, praying prayers that seemingly fell on God's deaf ears, I realized that I was given a sane mind, and healthy body for reasons beyond sweating small and - in the end - not so significant details. So here's to channeling energy to the positive experiences of the summer♥, and all that jazz beyond. I have a lot of hope that in the end, we'll all realize we're better together as friends, rather than strangers competing to be the best of a class that doesn't even exist. Or whatever we're trying now a days.
I can't believe I typed so much in one sitting ...
Major gut spilling.
"aaawkward!"
It's nice to think once in a while,
cause my brain is definitely enjoying
its summer hibernation :P
It's been ridonkulous!
Anyways, I'm in Richmond Hill right now, so that means that the food I am smelling is Filipino food done the right way.
W/love,
Ariahna
Gone, people, all awkward with their things, gone.
The world and I, we made it to July 2006 (it is a big deal). I couldn't wait until I could reach that moment when I'd be able say "I graduated, so here's to a brand new direction in life". Of course, I didn't plan on anything too drastic to turn my life a full 180 (I'm only out of high school). I'm in that state of contentment, that I only usually feel on a Friday night, off work, hanging out with good friends ... but since it's summer, it's like this everyday! It's amazing how much perspective you can gain in a month. I'm happy to say that I've seen a lot of new sides to some of the friends I thought I knew best. Whether good, or bad, it was refreshing just because I know that the whole phenomenon of 'growing up' and 'change' is charging through everyone's veins, and I'm happy for them. Late nights at the beach watching an orange moon go down are only enjoyable just because I know I can sleep in until 1:30pm the next day without persecution. Sitting around a table surrounded by a group of old friends is so reassuring, and trading secrets knowing that you can trust them after 3 - 4 years of a friendship hiatus is amazing. Yeah, you hear a lot of talk about the "power of true love and friendship", but you don't really appreciate it until a) it's gone, or b) you experience it yourself. Fortunately, I haven't lost anything I wouldn't want to live without. I can count with two hands, people who have inspired me, or left me in awe within the last month... basically just because they're amazing as human beings. The times when I met life with a weak battle front, I didn't even have to ask, and they flipped things around. I've had songs sang to me, letters written stating "Your parents must be terrorists cause you're the bomb!" haha (ego-boost!? I♥Janelle), I've been out to lunch catching up. As of late, shifts at work are really forcing me to keep track of the days, but as long as I have one day off to sleep, and chill with the cats, I'm good.
At this point, it's pretty much smooth sailing from here. After putting much effort into a lot of things for the past year, I wasn't disappointed with the end results for the most of it. I had two classes in grade 12 that left me wondering whether or not I'd even end up graduating though, yes it was that horrible. Graduation rolled around, and I loved it because 1) Those I love was there to cheer me on, and 2) I was so proud of all my classmates. I ended up getting Ontario Scholars, which means that I scored a place on honour roll again. I was happy to see that my final avrg was much better than expected. I also left grad with the Cardinal Newman Scholarship, which was a happy extra for me. After receiving my report card, I had to wait for one more thing to satisfy my academic life which came a few days later. I found out that my application for a deferral to York U. was accepted, and now I'm enrolled for the 07 - 08 year instead of next. That was a relief, at least all that stress about which course to take wasn't for nothing back in November. Now that I have an extra year to think about it, I'm definitely considering U of T seriously, so we'll see how that turns out. That closes the book on academics for now, though I have no idea how I'll take not being in school for a whole year. I'm eagerly looking forward to next year's 9 month adventure around the country, it gives me goose bumps just thinking about it. Meanwhile, I wish I could help out more often with the kittens at The Humane Society. They're amazing, and just looking at them makes you want to hug everyone in sight and tell them "it's okay, mommy's here, shh shh, and she wuvs you so so much!".
AND, my teeth are getting sore from clenching them together so tight when I see cuteness. hahahhaha
In other news, a lot is happening with the home life as well. I avoided being around the family while they were having their serious adult discussions which I should have participated in because I'm cool and 18, but I always slinked away into my own world. Not knowing served as a protective shield, and so long as I was oblivious to what was going on, I was able to hold off the finality of what was happening. Safe to say that even though some things were rough around the edges, all the talks smoothed it out, and some changes are coming our way in the next couple of months. I'm much-o excited, but I'll be gone while everyone else is reaping the benefits. I know it's important to nurture relationships at home, so that every other relationship you encounter away from mom and dad's protective wing, is healthy too. Expressing myself with people I hold close to heart is very important, but sometimes it was hard to take in their advice on certain things, especially when they weren't the ones confronting 1 000 000 + 1 new emotions at the same time.
Life isn't always full of posies and blue skies, and I knew that from the start. I appreciate being aware and informed of what's going on, so when people aren't honest with me, it sucks. Things are just right, but sometimes even when I'm feeling light as a feather with contentment, memories just go over me like water over dry ground. The damage is done, so I guess I just left. Everything's looking up for me right now, but it is definitely unfortunate that sometimes when life happens .. shit happens, and best friends split. While I lay down tanning one time, praying prayers that seemingly fell on God's deaf ears, I realized that I was given a sane mind, and healthy body for reasons beyond sweating small and - in the end - not so significant details. So here's to channeling energy to the positive experiences of the summer♥, and all that jazz beyond. I have a lot of hope that in the end, we'll all realize we're better together as friends, rather than strangers competing to be the best of a class that doesn't even exist. Or whatever we're trying now a days.
I can't believe I typed so much in one sitting ...
Major gut spilling.
"aaawkward!"
It's nice to think once in a while,
cause my brain is definitely enjoying
its summer hibernation :P
It's been ridonkulous!
Anyways, I'm in Richmond Hill right now, so that means that the food I am smelling is Filipino food done the right way.
W/love,
Ariahna