Your disciple

[hylandsdeath]

I was your disciple

I believed every word you said

I loved your hand upon my head

You guided me toward the light

When you bedded me for the night

Every word you spoke I cherished

For you, I’d have perished

Everything of mine was yours to keep

I didn’t realize that I fell too deep

Fear encompassed my entire soul

And blackness, a developing hole

That tore open every scar

I pushed and pushed, and pushed too far

Yet, you stayed near me and forgave my sin

You crawled inside, beneath my skin

Reveling in the words you spoke

Choking on the cruel joke

It was all a sweet, sweet lie

Questioning it all and asking why

I tricked myself and wore the mask

Build myself up to the task

I never thought I was wrong

I never thought that I was strong

You tried to lift me up but I fell hard

Now I’m broken and scarred

Bleeding now that my wings are gone

Began to stare and lingered too long

You walk away and wash your hands

And I still jump at your commands

What a fool I’ve become

Stumbling after you deaf and dumb

I want to end it now

I want to fly away

If only I knew how

I wonder if I’ll be okay