At least the weather was good
Went to Rochester's Pride picnic today. Had a touch of a problem finding it but made it there. Then it took me a while to find where Scott and group had their stuff as they dropped it off and no one else was there so I didn't know it was theirs. Once I got settled, I wandered around and realized in the hundreds and hundreds of people there, I knew almost no one. The only people I knew beforehand that I saw were Scott and his friend Jason (who I met at the movie theatre when we saw Superman Returns), thereisnofear and Richard (who has buffed up some and I had thought he was handsome before), jlyon1515, Rom and Donnell (sp?). Most were off wandering their own paths and I rarely even saw them so I wandered the place doing the "stranger in a strange land" bit. At least it was warm and sunny out. There was some eye candy there at least so I could window shop. (Look but not touch, as usual.) Hearing everyone talking about who's get new boyfriends and who is going to be hooking up with who later on and stuff on top of things last night at bear night left me with 2 feelings. First, that I'm totally inadequate in the gay world and I wish I could go back to dating females. Second, that my depression is kicking in again beyond the medicinal control. Tho my freak out at failing at something yesterday afternoon in EQ2 was proof of that earlier on anyway. So I had a lot on my mind on the way home. I ended up putting the "More than Words" cover by Westlife on repeat on the last leg of my trip.
Saying I love you
Is not the words
I want to hear from you
Its not that I want you
Not to say
But if you only knew
How easy
It would be to
Show me how you feel
More than words
Is all you have to do
To make it real
Then you wouldnt
Have to say
That you love me
Cos Id already know
What would you do
If my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say
If I took those words away
Then you couldnt make things new
Just by saying I love you
It s more than words
It s more than what you say
It s the things you do
Oh yeah
It s more than words
It s more than what you say
It s the things you do
Oh yeah
Now that Ive tried to
Talk to you
And make you understand
All you have to do
Is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands
And touch me
Hold me close
Dont ever let me go
More than words
Is all I ever
Needed you to show
Then you wouldnt have to say
That you love me
Cos Id already know
What would you do
If my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldnt make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words
Something about the lyrics just hit me. Well, I stopped on the way home and picked up some more Smirnoff Twists which were luckily on sale too. So I guess I'll go hide in game to distract my mind from some of the stuff going through it til I just have to go to sleep and then probably be anti-social for a few til this all clears up so I don't end up offending anyone or end up in discussions that make things worse.
Saying I love you
Is not the words
I want to hear from you
Its not that I want you
Not to say
But if you only knew
How easy
It would be to
Show me how you feel
More than words
Is all you have to do
To make it real
Then you wouldnt
Have to say
That you love me
Cos Id already know
What would you do
If my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say
If I took those words away
Then you couldnt make things new
Just by saying I love you
It s more than words
It s more than what you say
It s the things you do
Oh yeah
It s more than words
It s more than what you say
It s the things you do
Oh yeah
Now that Ive tried to
Talk to you
And make you understand
All you have to do
Is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands
And touch me
Hold me close
Dont ever let me go
More than words
Is all I ever
Needed you to show
Then you wouldnt have to say
That you love me
Cos Id already know
What would you do
If my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldnt make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words
Something about the lyrics just hit me. Well, I stopped on the way home and picked up some more Smirnoff Twists which were luckily on sale too. So I guess I'll go hide in game to distract my mind from some of the stuff going through it til I just have to go to sleep and then probably be anti-social for a few til this all clears up so I don't end up offending anyone or end up in discussions that make things worse.