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So after talking with _beren_ (I'll have to figure out how to link that later) I've decided to move my blog over here to Live Journal from MySpace. I'm still keeping my account over there because I have friends that I'd like to keep in touch with, but I love the conversations that pop up from the comments. MySpace doesn't do that so here I am. Not to mention I'd like to catch a few new friends I made down in New Mexico (now I just have to find them).
Okay, enough of the technical side show stuff. On to the blog entry!
I realized today that I'm in such a good mood. I will never cease to be amazed at the difference changing my thoughts produces. Most of last week I was considering my thoughts and the implications of a decision I made after a girl turned me down for a date.
Backstory
I asked a girl out on a date and she turned me down--hard. It wasn't nice how she did it. Now if it was a complete stranger there'd be something to it, but this is someone I've known for four years, someone I considered a friend. There wasn't any respect to it, nothing. She only wanted to get the message across and used the fact that I had previously asked her out. This was long enough ago that I had to think hard to remember that I asked her to lunch when I was near her workplace--and she only said that she was busy that day and couldn't get away. That was her excuse for 'making sure I completely understood her desire to not spend one-on-one time with me'. At the time I had to cut the conversation as short as possible because I had been about to seriously make fun of her. She was so serious over something as inane as a date. This led me to a realization that most the women at the church I go to have no respect for me.
At that point I got seriously angry and talked with a couple of my friends. A few of them managed to calm me down but not before I made a few changes to my world view.
/Backstory
_beren_ would be proud me for making the changes. (See I do still change!) It did, however, take ten days for me to completely realize what those changes meant. And that's what the rest of this post is about.
My friend (haven't found him here on LJ yet) got married this last weekend. The bachelor party and wedding were immensly fun. I even met some new friends like Ikeru.
Now, all of my friends at the wedding will probably laugh at this, but I felt like I was a part of the group in a way that I haven't felt at my church for a long time. In short, strangers liked me more than people I've been around for four years. I don't see that as right.
Of course, I also think _beren_ and his brother being around sent me back to college when I was a little bit more free with my actions instead of how guarded they've become here at home. So no more. I will be me and everyone who doesn't like it can go sit in Apollo's Chariot.
I hate it when I'm getting pushed too far--but love it when I can push back. I'm floating right now. I know life will come back to normal in the next week or so, in the meantime I plan on enjoying my new outlook on life.
Okay, enough of the technical side show stuff. On to the blog entry!
I realized today that I'm in such a good mood. I will never cease to be amazed at the difference changing my thoughts produces. Most of last week I was considering my thoughts and the implications of a decision I made after a girl turned me down for a date.
Backstory
I asked a girl out on a date and she turned me down--hard. It wasn't nice how she did it. Now if it was a complete stranger there'd be something to it, but this is someone I've known for four years, someone I considered a friend. There wasn't any respect to it, nothing. She only wanted to get the message across and used the fact that I had previously asked her out. This was long enough ago that I had to think hard to remember that I asked her to lunch when I was near her workplace--and she only said that she was busy that day and couldn't get away. That was her excuse for 'making sure I completely understood her desire to not spend one-on-one time with me'. At the time I had to cut the conversation as short as possible because I had been about to seriously make fun of her. She was so serious over something as inane as a date. This led me to a realization that most the women at the church I go to have no respect for me.
At that point I got seriously angry and talked with a couple of my friends. A few of them managed to calm me down but not before I made a few changes to my world view.
/Backstory
_beren_ would be proud me for making the changes. (See I do still change!) It did, however, take ten days for me to completely realize what those changes meant. And that's what the rest of this post is about.
My friend (haven't found him here on LJ yet) got married this last weekend. The bachelor party and wedding were immensly fun. I even met some new friends like Ikeru.
Now, all of my friends at the wedding will probably laugh at this, but I felt like I was a part of the group in a way that I haven't felt at my church for a long time. In short, strangers liked me more than people I've been around for four years. I don't see that as right.
Of course, I also think _beren_ and his brother being around sent me back to college when I was a little bit more free with my actions instead of how guarded they've become here at home. So no more. I will be me and everyone who doesn't like it can go sit in Apollo's Chariot.
I hate it when I'm getting pushed too far--but love it when I can push back. I'm floating right now. I know life will come back to normal in the next week or so, in the meantime I plan on enjoying my new outlook on life.