[ He was playing that game where you have a pile of pencils and you have to take each one out without dropping the others... and he was WINNING. Until you just spoke, Sasuke, and his concentration disappeared and four pencils come tumbling down. ]
Hn. Fine. [ Pushes the pile of pencils away. ] Did you bring your prescriptions? And the... oh wait, I have some of your...relevant things...somewhere... uh... [ Rummages through the side drawer and finally brings out a tiny stack of crumpled papers ; ; ]
Mm. So, I managed to go through everything on here. [ Opens it up and glares at the papers. ] Most of them don't even make sense.
[Reaches into his backpack and pulls out the three bottles, lining them up on the desk.] My files are useless. Basically nobody agrees on what's actually wrong with me.
All your tests show numbers that don't make any sense. They're supposed to show a pattern, but I'm getting nothing.
[ He looks at the three bottles for a whole minute and then pushes them away. ]
Tch. Alright. Let's just... start from the very beginning.
When, exactly did this start? You said you were diagnosed with 'depression' at first? Tell me the whole story. Every detail you can remember. [ Tosses the crumpled test results away too ]
[When did it start? He frowns and looks at Shisui, crossing his arms over his chest.
He's silent for a long minute before he starts talking--he knows Shisui is smart enough not to fuck him over, but there's still the persistent worry in the back of his head from his previous experiences.]
Itachi sent me to a private middle school. I got stressed. Started feeling down all the time. Teacher noticed and sent me to counseling. They put me on sertraline. Then I started getting angry and scared, so they put me in the hospital for a week and added sedatives.
[Leans back in the chair. He hasn't intentionally remembered this in ages--it's a weird feeling.] So I walked around like a zombie for a while, while inside my head I was panicking constantly. Took me off the sedatives and I started having these spells where I couldn't stop crying, so they put me in the hospital again. Switched me to citalopram and added lorazepam. I learned that if I wanted to stay out of the hospital, I should keep my mouth shut about what was going on in my head
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I think I may be bipolar too /did research and broke brainhydrophobicityOctober 13 2011, 16:28:13 UTC
[ He listens through Sasuke's story, trying his hardest to keep a poker face because he just can't help going from angry to sad to sympathetic and everything in between. He thinks it's unforgivable to have put someone so young through all of this. And when Sasuke pulls up his sleeve to show him the scars, some of them somewhat fresh, he has to resist the urge to take his arm and touch them, worry over them, tell him things are going to be okay, and slap a bandaid with dinosaurs on it. Of course, Shisui's gaze just fixes on those scars, listening to Sasuke carry on, Shisui's own fingers curling to make fists, knuckles white. And when he comes to the part about being strapped to a bed and loaded with tranquilizers... ]
...And how... how do you feel now? Here, at this school? How do you feel with Naruto? How do you feel about living with Itachi again...? And... [ His gaze falls back onto those cuts, fingers uncurling but not attempting to touch Sasuke. ] Where else...?
[ Had Sasuke been two, or five, or even nine, Shisui would have
( ... )
You know there's a correlation between bipolar disorder and creativity? c:imwithdobeOctober 13 2011, 21:20:29 UTC
[Shisui's looking at him with this--intensity in his face. Sasuke can't place it--it makes him uncomfortable. He shifts, pulling down his shirt sleeve, suddenly burningly aware of how angry the scabs look.]
...I thought Itachi was the one who left me there. It's been better since I learned he had no idea. The school's okay. Naruto....[Is confusing and hyper and indescribable.] Makes me happy.
Nowhere else. Just the arm. [He doesn't like the way Shisui is looking at him--almost hopeless.]
vincent van gho-- how to spell his nameee lolhydrophobicityOctober 14 2011, 04:37:04 UTC
[ He can't help it :c And when Sasuke pulls down his sleeve, he snaps back to his senses. ]
Itachi would do no such thing. [ He reiterates this, just because. ] He loves you too much for that. Tch.
[ Shisui's glad to hear generally positive feedback about Sasuke's current situation. ] Hn. Have you tried another instrument besides the violin? [ He's currently writing up a new 'prescription' on a piece of paper~ ]
VAN GOH <3 imwithdobeOctober 14 2011, 06:06:37 UTC
Yeah, I know that now. Makes me sort of feel bad for putting eight hundred bucks on his credit card. [He still has to figure out a way to pay Aniki back for that...]
Naruto found me another violin in the music room here. [He leans forward, trying to see what's on the paper--] More drugs?
[ EH?! This is when he looks up from writing ] ... What.... [ blinkblink ] What on earth did you buy for nearly a thousand dollars, Sasuke? |8 And have you paid him back? Itachi will want a refund...
[ He pushes the piece of paper to Sasuke ] Yes. More drugs.
[ The list read:
1. Spend more time with Naruto 2. Spend more time with Shisui-nii and Itachi ♥ 3. Movie night on Thursday 4. Keep a record of diet - salts encouraged since you're taking Lithium 5. STAY AWAY FROM MADARA ]
Long-sleeved shirts. [Raises an eyebrow.] And some other stuff, so Itachi wouldn't guess. I'd outgrown most of my wardrobe.
By the way, he--doesn't know about. [Tugs at the end of his sleeve.] And I don't want to tell him.
[He takes the list, scanning over it. Most of it makes him smirk, but the last item makes him pause.] I haven't seen Madara since I was little. He told me there was a T-rex in my closet.
I won't tell Itachi. I think he will respect our confidence in each other.
[ On the topic of Madara, however, his face darkens, and his eyes immediately dart to the side drawer, hand going to open it just a bit to make sure that gun was still in there. ] Just... Stay away from him. Don't ever visit the nurse's office. Come to me if you needed a bandaid or something.
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[ Here. Have a very, very sad pout. ] Rats.
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Mm. So, I managed to go through everything on here. [ Opens it up and glares at the papers. ] Most of them don't even make sense.
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[ He looks at the three bottles for a whole minute and then pushes them away. ]
Tch. Alright. Let's just... start from the very beginning.
When, exactly did this start? You said you were diagnosed with 'depression' at first? Tell me the whole story. Every detail you can remember. [ Tosses the crumpled test results away too ]
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He's silent for a long minute before he starts talking--he knows Shisui is smart enough not to fuck him over, but there's still the persistent worry in the back of his head from his previous experiences.]
Itachi sent me to a private middle school. I got stressed. Started feeling down all the time. Teacher noticed and sent me to counseling. They put me on sertraline. Then I started getting angry and scared, so they put me in the hospital for a week and added sedatives.
[Leans back in the chair. He hasn't intentionally remembered this in ages--it's a weird feeling.] So I walked around like a zombie for a while, while inside my head I was panicking constantly. Took me off the sedatives and I started having these spells where I couldn't stop crying, so they put me in the hospital again. Switched me to citalopram and added lorazepam. I learned that if I wanted to stay out of the hospital, I should keep my mouth shut about what was going on in my head ( ... )
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...And how... how do you feel now? Here, at this school? How do you feel with Naruto? How do you feel about living with Itachi again...? And... [ His gaze falls back onto those cuts, fingers uncurling but not attempting to touch Sasuke. ] Where else...?
[ Had Sasuke been two, or five, or even nine, Shisui would have ( ... )
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...I thought Itachi was the one who left me there. It's been better since I learned he had no idea. The school's okay. Naruto....[Is confusing and hyper and indescribable.] Makes me happy.
Nowhere else. Just the arm. [He doesn't like the way Shisui is looking at him--almost hopeless.]
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Itachi would do no such thing. [ He reiterates this, just because. ] He loves you too much for that. Tch.
[ Shisui's glad to hear generally positive feedback about Sasuke's current situation. ] Hn. Have you tried another instrument besides the violin? [ He's currently writing up a new 'prescription' on a piece of paper~ ]
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Naruto found me another violin in the music room here. [He leans forward, trying to see what's on the paper--] More drugs?
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[ He pushes the piece of paper to Sasuke ] Yes. More drugs.
[ The list read:
1. Spend more time with Naruto
2. Spend more time with Shisui-nii and Itachi ♥
3. Movie night on Thursday
4. Keep a record of diet - salts encouraged since you're taking Lithium
5. STAY AWAY FROM MADARA
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By the way, he--doesn't know about. [Tugs at the end of his sleeve.] And I don't want to tell him.
[He takes the list, scanning over it. Most of it makes him smirk, but the last item makes him pause.] I haven't seen Madara since I was little. He told me there was a T-rex in my closet.
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[ On the topic of Madara, however, his face darkens, and his eyes immediately dart to the side drawer, hand going to open it just a bit to make sure that gun was still in there. ] Just... Stay away from him. Don't ever visit the nurse's office. Come to me if you needed a bandaid or something.
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