Friday I'm In Love
While everyone else was enjoying a night of debauchery at the beach (repent G, repent!!), I on the other hand slept really early yesterday and woke up after about 12 hours. Haven't slept that long since we moved back to Ritz, I don't know why. Had lunch then tried playing Vegas 2 today and stopped after 15 minutes. I can't stand it! It's too stressful. Ayoko ng gulat factor, gusto ko steady lang. AJ got frustrated with the way I was playing because I wasn't doing the stealth crap. Hindi ako pang stealth! I hated it when people started using snipers in CS. Gusto ko basta barilan lang.
So there half the day was gone, wasted away the rest of it surfing and reading useless crap online. I need new books I think. Or better yet, revisit old favorites from the library when I go to mom's tomorrow. And maybe I'll cook dinner as well. :) We're all going there tomorrow night for Easter vigil just cos the one at Cenacle is the most beautiful mass ever. Everything is so pretty and solemn and perfect. Okay, maybe save for the occasional ants from the mango trees (note to self: don't wear tsinelas). I don't really hear mass anymore but this one is something I wouldn't wanna miss.
And speaking of missing, i really miss painting. I miss FA and all my FA friends. I miss freshman year the most cos it was just incredibly fun, with Goldie and Mia hanging out in the studio arts area all the time. I miss lantern season and the fake bonfires and how sabaw people get with no sleep. I miss the cats. I miss finals week and the cramming and coffee overload that makes me feel like I'm on crystal meth or something. I miss Rayson and Jin. I miss FIGURE DRAWING, WTF??!??! Hahaha! I loved FA. I love art school. I love UP! But I don't think I can go back cos it's no longer the same. I want something that will teach me things I won't learn here. I want people who will challenge the way I think and the way I come up with ideas and problems. I want to be surrounded with people who think the same way and will explore with me. I think I want to wander off and discover new things, meet new people, experience other cultures. I want to do it alone. I loved going off on my own in countries I've never visited and I loved the language barrier because I could just observe and soak everything in. I love it, I felt like I was watching a play. No one to bump into, no one to have meaningless conversations with for the sake of being polite, no trying to be nice to people you don't really care for.
Inasmuch as I like being with my friends, I actually enjoy being alone, conjuring up images of future conversations, future paintings, the movie script I will write, the nice photos i will take, and all the money I'll be swimming in once I get sikat na. HAHAHA!!
In other news, Mari's growing up pretty fast, it's kind of sad. I still remember how he felt pushing at all my internal organs and seeing his foot run across my big ass tummy like an alien baby from that Alien vs Predator movie. Now he's talking in complete sentences and telling me what to do! I wish I could go back in time and experience every moment with him over and over again. Wait a minute, if I had a time machine I'd do EVERYTHING at least twice. GRABE! The youth is REALLY wasted on the young. If only I knew then what I know now. Well no, if only I believed they were all true. HAHA! But then if the youth knew what they were doing, they wouldn't be the youth, would they?
That bar of chocolate has been staring at me the whole day, it's been calling out to me, I know it - but that's my lenten sacrifice. AJ sacrificed taking a shower. HAHAHA!
A gazillion rolls of film waiting to be developed. Tomorrow's stop: Digiprint.
So there half the day was gone, wasted away the rest of it surfing and reading useless crap online. I need new books I think. Or better yet, revisit old favorites from the library when I go to mom's tomorrow. And maybe I'll cook dinner as well. :) We're all going there tomorrow night for Easter vigil just cos the one at Cenacle is the most beautiful mass ever. Everything is so pretty and solemn and perfect. Okay, maybe save for the occasional ants from the mango trees (note to self: don't wear tsinelas). I don't really hear mass anymore but this one is something I wouldn't wanna miss.
And speaking of missing, i really miss painting. I miss FA and all my FA friends. I miss freshman year the most cos it was just incredibly fun, with Goldie and Mia hanging out in the studio arts area all the time. I miss lantern season and the fake bonfires and how sabaw people get with no sleep. I miss the cats. I miss finals week and the cramming and coffee overload that makes me feel like I'm on crystal meth or something. I miss Rayson and Jin. I miss FIGURE DRAWING, WTF??!??! Hahaha! I loved FA. I love art school. I love UP! But I don't think I can go back cos it's no longer the same. I want something that will teach me things I won't learn here. I want people who will challenge the way I think and the way I come up with ideas and problems. I want to be surrounded with people who think the same way and will explore with me. I think I want to wander off and discover new things, meet new people, experience other cultures. I want to do it alone. I loved going off on my own in countries I've never visited and I loved the language barrier because I could just observe and soak everything in. I love it, I felt like I was watching a play. No one to bump into, no one to have meaningless conversations with for the sake of being polite, no trying to be nice to people you don't really care for.
Inasmuch as I like being with my friends, I actually enjoy being alone, conjuring up images of future conversations, future paintings, the movie script I will write, the nice photos i will take, and all the money I'll be swimming in once I get sikat na. HAHAHA!!
In other news, Mari's growing up pretty fast, it's kind of sad. I still remember how he felt pushing at all my internal organs and seeing his foot run across my big ass tummy like an alien baby from that Alien vs Predator movie. Now he's talking in complete sentences and telling me what to do! I wish I could go back in time and experience every moment with him over and over again. Wait a minute, if I had a time machine I'd do EVERYTHING at least twice. GRABE! The youth is REALLY wasted on the young. If only I knew then what I know now. Well no, if only I believed they were all true. HAHA! But then if the youth knew what they were doing, they wouldn't be the youth, would they?
That bar of chocolate has been staring at me the whole day, it's been calling out to me, I know it - but that's my lenten sacrifice. AJ sacrificed taking a shower. HAHAHA!
A gazillion rolls of film waiting to be developed. Tomorrow's stop: Digiprint.