scrapping no.1 (to 4)
a month has passed. another month has passed. a full month has passed. a damn long month has passed.
so what did I do in the past month? lots I can tell, but not much interesting.
Twilight
I think that's where I left from my last entry. yeah, since I watch this news about Twilight the movie on San Diego's comic-con report, somehow I'm very intrigued by the base storyline : vampire, and young romance *smirk* yeah, I'm actually that cinderella-tales-lover girl. of course I prefer the modern version, though I would love to ride a horse to my party (not the pumpkin carriage). ha. ha. ha.
and then I remembered of seeing the Indonesian version of the novel, so I rushed to the nearest bookstore and bought it and drowned in it for the next 3 days. not that I'm not capable of finishing it in a day (it's 'just' 500 pages! huh.), but lots going on around that day. like my father's memorial service for one.
and after I finished the 1st book (ignoring my mom's protest coz it looks like I have no other life than the book at that time), I'm starting to crave for the next one. and since I can't find myself rushed to the bookstore that time, I found what I want in the internet (long life those soldiers who invented it!). all 4 at once, from the beginning 'till the end. hah. wish I found that sooner so I won't waste 60 thou rupiahs (around 7 bucks) for the 1st book. but I guess it's still worth it.
so I spend the next week staring at my computer's screen every night and day (and it's not like I never done it before. hah.), and managed to finish the whole series in 2 weeks. let's just say, the scrolling part delayed me a little. hahaha. and even until now, I'm still amazed by the magic it tells and can't wait for the release of 'Midnight Sun' which is the coupling book for 'Twilight', and of course the movie premiere which will be screened 3 weeks earlier! watch out Harry, there's a new boy in town. lol.
Thesis
yes, as much as I'm reluctant to admit it, I have to start to finish it sometime soon. my team leader already gave me an assignment, and somehow I'm getting cold feet again. dunno what the hell is exactly wrong with my head, coz the idea of being able to say goodbye to that orange building (but it's gray in the outside now) should be more than enough to encourage me and to speed things up. but maybe graduation isn't as easy as I thought. not to mention that I have to be back into that building, regularly, in just 2 weeks from now. crap.
Dance
laugh at me people, for ever trying to put my balance problem on test. huh. but watching Step Up (both) again (and again), really makes my body wants to move. literally. but for all we know, it will be a better world if I keep my feet on the ground, permanent.
Scholarships
not that I owned an over-sized brain, I'm just trying to push my luck here. and not that I don't have great respect for the land where I was born, but I'm really desperate to get out of here. not permanently of course. I still have my mother and brother here. but maybe for a good one year or two, no harm will be done. I just really need to get out. really.
and as my first choice is, and always will be Japan, but I'm starting to consider UK. England, to be exact. Durham University, to be precise. coz there's no heaven or even hell on earth that will allow me to enter Oxbridge. hah.
so I was thinking that I will spend a summer school in Japan, studying the language and the history and the Johnnys (lol). then I will take a History major in Durham for a year or two. I'm not really looking for the degree actually. I just want to learn something. and I'm definitely not going anywhere near IT anymore. have enough with it for 4 years. my choices are either History or Literature and anything that goes with it.
but again, realizing a plan is never as easy as planning it. my biggest obstacle is the finance problem of course. and to solve it, comes another problem, my brain. I'm not gonna say I'm the most stupid person on earth (or in my campus to shorten the list), but I'm not genius either. just average. below it a little maybe. I'm not gonna impressed anyone with my grades, let alone my resume. so I really have no idea how to get through this one thing. but I'm trying, y'know. not all my best yet, I'm still trying on it too. and I'm thinking to change my motto of life to "money isn't everything, but everything needs money." *sigh*
so that's it. my life, my boring life, for the past month. there's the part where my lovely virus is back in action coz I let myself exhausted for 3 days in a row, which is the most stupid act of me, and it left me with a very cute 'scar' on my lips. thank god it's gone now. but not the sick part. just 2 days of playing out and I'm already catching a cold now. god, I really need to work my body out. before it got worn out anymore than it already is. geez.
so what did I do in the past month? lots I can tell, but not much interesting.
Twilight
I think that's where I left from my last entry. yeah, since I watch this news about Twilight the movie on San Diego's comic-con report, somehow I'm very intrigued by the base storyline : vampire, and young romance *smirk* yeah, I'm actually that cinderella-tales-lover girl. of course I prefer the modern version, though I would love to ride a horse to my party (not the pumpkin carriage). ha. ha. ha.
and then I remembered of seeing the Indonesian version of the novel, so I rushed to the nearest bookstore and bought it and drowned in it for the next 3 days. not that I'm not capable of finishing it in a day (it's 'just' 500 pages! huh.), but lots going on around that day. like my father's memorial service for one.
and after I finished the 1st book (ignoring my mom's protest coz it looks like I have no other life than the book at that time), I'm starting to crave for the next one. and since I can't find myself rushed to the bookstore that time, I found what I want in the internet (long life those soldiers who invented it!). all 4 at once, from the beginning 'till the end. hah. wish I found that sooner so I won't waste 60 thou rupiahs (around 7 bucks) for the 1st book. but I guess it's still worth it.
so I spend the next week staring at my computer's screen every night and day (and it's not like I never done it before. hah.), and managed to finish the whole series in 2 weeks. let's just say, the scrolling part delayed me a little. hahaha. and even until now, I'm still amazed by the magic it tells and can't wait for the release of 'Midnight Sun' which is the coupling book for 'Twilight', and of course the movie premiere which will be screened 3 weeks earlier! watch out Harry, there's a new boy in town. lol.
Thesis
yes, as much as I'm reluctant to admit it, I have to start to finish it sometime soon. my team leader already gave me an assignment, and somehow I'm getting cold feet again. dunno what the hell is exactly wrong with my head, coz the idea of being able to say goodbye to that orange building (but it's gray in the outside now) should be more than enough to encourage me and to speed things up. but maybe graduation isn't as easy as I thought. not to mention that I have to be back into that building, regularly, in just 2 weeks from now. crap.
Dance
laugh at me people, for ever trying to put my balance problem on test. huh. but watching Step Up (both) again (and again), really makes my body wants to move. literally. but for all we know, it will be a better world if I keep my feet on the ground, permanent.
Scholarships
not that I owned an over-sized brain, I'm just trying to push my luck here. and not that I don't have great respect for the land where I was born, but I'm really desperate to get out of here. not permanently of course. I still have my mother and brother here. but maybe for a good one year or two, no harm will be done. I just really need to get out. really.
and as my first choice is, and always will be Japan, but I'm starting to consider UK. England, to be exact. Durham University, to be precise. coz there's no heaven or even hell on earth that will allow me to enter Oxbridge. hah.
so I was thinking that I will spend a summer school in Japan, studying the language and the history and the Johnnys (lol). then I will take a History major in Durham for a year or two. I'm not really looking for the degree actually. I just want to learn something. and I'm definitely not going anywhere near IT anymore. have enough with it for 4 years. my choices are either History or Literature and anything that goes with it.
but again, realizing a plan is never as easy as planning it. my biggest obstacle is the finance problem of course. and to solve it, comes another problem, my brain. I'm not gonna say I'm the most stupid person on earth (or in my campus to shorten the list), but I'm not genius either. just average. below it a little maybe. I'm not gonna impressed anyone with my grades, let alone my resume. so I really have no idea how to get through this one thing. but I'm trying, y'know. not all my best yet, I'm still trying on it too. and I'm thinking to change my motto of life to "money isn't everything, but everything needs money." *sigh*
so that's it. my life, my boring life, for the past month. there's the part where my lovely virus is back in action coz I let myself exhausted for 3 days in a row, which is the most stupid act of me, and it left me with a very cute 'scar' on my lips. thank god it's gone now. but not the sick part. just 2 days of playing out and I'm already catching a cold now. god, I really need to work my body out. before it got worn out anymore than it already is. geez.