Alright, I'm going to try this.

[hybrid_psionics]

I don’t know how to start. I got the idea to do something like this a while ago. I mean, how do you even write something like this? How do you put everything that you are into words? Beware: this is going to be a very disjointed read, anyone reads it at all

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[hybrid_psionics]

I know I deserve people that will treat me with respect. I've had a lot of people tell me lately that if this is how they are going to react to what I did and how I feel, then they weren't really friends to begin with, regardless of how long the friendship was. I talked to a friend today that went through a very similar situation and told me that right now, it'll be tough to deal with, but eventually I'll be thankful that I shed those people form my life. Actually, over the past couple of days, I've started to realize that a lot of the reason why I felt so down on myself was because that's how those people were treating me. The way that I'm feeling right now is my own fault; if I can shake off this residual emotion, I think I'll be great. I won't have people in my life that constantly put me down.

I'm not comfortable with being trampled on. That's why I wrote this. I want to be treated better, and I KNOW I deserve better, especially with how I treat damn near everyone I know with the utmost respect and civility (though I can become a little hot under the collar when they start to push certain buttons, which is actually a relatively new development and one of the reasons why I've landed myself with now friends).

There's a lot to the situation that I'm not explaining. I'm not really doing it justice. There were a lot of factors involved, what, with me being immensely stressed and pressured, and feeling like I had to deal with all of these things at one time. It was hell, and I was stretched too thin (I like to use that metaphor because that's how it felt; it felt like there were a hundred things pulling me in all different directions).