Alright, I'm going to try this.

[hybrid_psionics]

I don’t know how to start. I got the idea to do something like this a while ago. I mean, how do you even write something like this? How do you put everything that you are into words? Beware: this is going to be a very disjointed read, anyone reads it at all

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[hybrid_psionics]

In the past, I've always been submissive with my friends. I stood up for myself pretty abrasively, which I know was the wrong way to do it. But I was really, really stressed, and it was kind of the last straw kind of situation for me.

I've asked for help from the past (mostly from my now former friends, one of which cited that I never listened to her advice), but a lot of what they were saying seemed heartless and out of character for me. I mean, sure, people were saying a lot of the same thing, but is it okay to recognize the "help" that they're trying to give as not very helpful at all? What if what they're advising you to do doesn't sit right with you?

I'm trying to work on myself. I mean, I really don't have a choice at the moment. The girl that I liked has become super great friends with all of my old friends, and none of them want anything to do with me. In fact, she's with one of them now. Kind of hurts a lot. But I'm getting over it, and I'm definitely doing a lot better than I was.

I read those articles, and I think that I'm somewhere in the middle of both of those extremes. I mean, I have some attributes from each one: I always say what I mean and mean what I say, but I do avoid conflict. I am dependable, but I also feel the need to be desired. Is that okay? I guess at least I'm not wholly the bad one.

I'm not really one to shrug off emotional pain. Stuff like that really hits me hard. REALLY hard. I guess that's part of my problem.