"...listening to silence."
It's been almost four months without you. I don't know how the world keeps turning and how life continues on -- whatever kind of "life" i have now.
I go to work.
I come home.
Rinse and repeat.
I can't bring myself to see people, or do things. I can't talk about you and the hole I have in my life. I can't think about never seeing you again. Never hearing you again. I can't and I won't.
I'll never understand what I've done -- what you did -- to deserve to be ripped from us so cruelly and so carelessly. I will make sure that neglectful piece of shit feels like a SLUG for the rest of his life. What he stole from me, from this community, from this world.
I haven't cut which is interesting to me. After losing Chester, it was all I thought about. Now having lost my dad I just feel numb. I don't feel happy, I don't feel sad, I DO feel angry. I feel numb. To everything. To everyone.
...and that's not healthy.
I go to work.
I come home.
Rinse and repeat.
I can't bring myself to see people, or do things. I can't talk about you and the hole I have in my life. I can't think about never seeing you again. Never hearing you again. I can't and I won't.
I'll never understand what I've done -- what you did -- to deserve to be ripped from us so cruelly and so carelessly. I will make sure that neglectful piece of shit feels like a SLUG for the rest of his life. What he stole from me, from this community, from this world.
I haven't cut which is interesting to me. After losing Chester, it was all I thought about. Now having lost my dad I just feel numb. I don't feel happy, I don't feel sad, I DO feel angry. I feel numb. To everything. To everyone.
...and that's not healthy.