Well
Well, lets see, I don't know what to talk about, of course the first thing I want to write about is April, but I think I'll talk about that last... Today I went to the doctor, she told me the tremoring was caused by the Lithium as well as the weak-knee thing. Tomorrow I go to AIU, if we can get everything together tomorrow and do the application process then I will start school for Media Production on Monday. In other news, I feel like I'm losing myself in a way. I feel like I'm giving up, but as well, just feel that there is nothing for me to give up on and I should just cave in and go with it. Soon I'll be a lemming, a sheep, a conformist. I'm losing what makes me unigue, because no one else can handle it and I'm damaging myself because I run against them, but try and drag someone with me every now and then... April wrote... She had nothing to say... Its sad, we had something great. A few nites ago, I got drunk, and she called, we talked for a long time, and for some reason, she wanted me to come there, and I told her if she still wanted it to call me the next day, but she didn't... I don't know whats going on anymore with that, I just wish that I could get over it, and wish that if I am, that I could just get out of her way and let her do her thing so that she can finally feel like she is where she wants to be. Oh well... Later.