Turkey
Well, relatively I had an ok day. Started off bad, almost had a bad ending, but then I decided to write someone, I feel bad about that kinda because its a fucking book. I started off miserable, crying, I broke down when getting into the shower and just couldn't do anything, I had to snap myself out of it before I wound up hugging the toilotte crying. The day got better, hung out with my mom, my brother, his girlfrend and her family. Took a nap around 6 i think. Showed Mike FFXI (Mike is Jessi's Dad, not my Jessi, Justin's Jessi... not that Jesi is my Jesi anymore, but we're still friends... shit.. I have to give her my new number when I figure it out... shit, I have to get her new number again as well, any helpers?). All day though I couldn't stop thinking about one person. Around 9 I started getting a headache... well by 11 even after taking 3 ibuprofen it had turned into a migraine, the worst I've ever had. My eyes weere thobbing, around 12 I laid in a bed with a pilow over my eyes, my eyes actually kept moving the pillow, I could feel them twitching, any source of light really really hurt, the pillow seemd to comfort me though. Oh yeah, all throughout the day me, Jessi, Justin, and Jessi's cousin Veronica played various SNES games. Mariokart, Mario World, Donkey Kong, Ken Griffey Jr. Baseball, it was a lot of fun. Back to the migraine. I decided to take a shower after laying for a bit and not getting fully better. Showers always seem to help, hot water pouring down on you, the sound of water hitting everything around you. I got out about 1:50, and my clothes were wet which really sucked. But they aren't so wet that I care and won't wear them. I decided I needed to write someone. Told them a lot of things, just sat and wrote and wrote and wrote, I had only intended on a short short e-mail.. but I guess I really needed to talk, because I just sat there and wrote until about 2:50. I'm still awake, but I think I'll be tired soon hopefully. I think I'm ok now. I don't know why, but I jsut feel la lot more calm, and restful, maybe its because I got through another holiday... I'm never good around these times, and I've had plenty of other things weighing on me. I ralize I need to JUST be happy. I have to figure out how to. I'm sure its in me.. and if it isn't I'll force it in there with meds. I've tried meds before, but when I was younger, and so afraid of taking medication that I would spit it out in the sink. Its amazing the things you can get away with, the things you can do without realizing that you can ya know. God, I'm so random with my thoughts. We have a schizo in our family, I hope thats NOT why my thoughts are random. Oh well.. I'm going to try and get some sleep, and if I can't, I'm going to sit in the room I've been alotted and play Finaly Fantasy 2, becuase I've never beaten that one nor 5. I'd say favourite one is still 3 (6 in Japan), it fucking 0\/\/|\|31), anyhow. later... I hope everyone on here at a great fucking holiday, and if not, well, I hope your next one is better, and if you need anyone, I'm right here.