The suck.
Well, I had a few things of cheer today, though it was mostly misery. Thanks to Emo for cheering me up for the little bit of time that she was able to. Right now I'm watching Cowboy Bebop on on emonitor and doing this on another. FFXI is not compatible with Dual Monitor, I think they are trying to keep people from cheating, not that they really will, there is always a way. I just want it so I can use strategy guides, but noooo, thats not good enough for them. Fucking Eniz (I refuse to blame Square) I'm trying not to think of one thing at all, trying not to think of it, acknowledge it, or accept it in any way. things are so shitty and I'm just trying not to think at all. I'm so tired of thinking. Why can't I be a drug addict? Or something.. anything to just ease the thoughts, ease the pain, to stop worrying, to stop caring. I hate this episode of Cowboy Bebop. It blows, its the first. Where they are tracking some fucking mexican fucker thats a drug dealer... So shitty to start of a series with such a depressing episode ya know. Don't want to think, not until everything is gone, or until everything is right again, or at least until.. fuck it, I don't know. I'm so fucked up. Later.