Wow this has been a while
So my LiveJournal has been a big stagnant for the past 10 months. A lot has occurred. I left Orlando (a mistake..I will get to that later), and moved to Denver. Now, remember that last post thinking...gosh where am I going to be living in 4 months? That was a scary thought. Shortly after I moved to Denver (moved in June) I realized I didn't like it here...it snowed in October. Now, the snow is not the biggest reason I don't like Denver, its that I didn't bring my college friends and fraternity brothers with me. Since moving here almost 7 months ago, I have been back to Orlando only ehhhh 4 times. The most recent adventure was just this past weekend. This was an impromptu trip when I found out I had a 4 day weekend. I went online and found a deal, which landed me in Orlando. Each time that I return comes with less and less surprise by my friends. It's almost as if I didn't move since I return home about every 5-6 weeks. I still spend the same amount of time with everyone but its all clustered together for a weekend or week long time, not an hour here and 40 minutes there. In October my friend Sarah, which I worked with in Orlando transferred positions and is now an installation specialist (training manager really) for a new property management system Hyatt is rolling out. I was interested in the job before, but thought that Denver was a better fit so I moved here. When I learned a bit more about the job, I went to my boss and he asked me to apply. I was shocked that he let me...my first thought is that they wanted to kick me out and I was under performing, but I soon found out that was not the case. I knew I would be a benefit to the position. After a series of telephone interviews, it was decided that they were "taking a different direction with my application." I was not upset that I didn't get the job, I was upset at the reason "lacks passion and career direction." I'm sorry but any idiot can see that this simply is not true. If you have not noticed on my resume that I have worked in three different properties and have moved with the company twice, held numerous management positions resulting in many accomplishments and have many letters and awards received. So where does "lack of passion and career direction come from?" I mean it takes a lot of balls to say that to someone, not only that, I apparently "don't know what I want to do when I grow up." Again, if you wish to view my resume and it states that I have worked in 3 different properties holding numerous management responsibilities resulting in many accomplishments, letters and professional awards...anyway...
So my plan with that job was to move back to Orlando where I was happy for a few reasons. My friends were there, the weather is better and we are in close drive to a significant body of water. Honestly, I didn't think about the city before moving here. Its a great city if you are going to visit, if you look at it on a map, you realize you are out in the middle of freakin nowhere. Bordering Utah to the west, New Mexico to the South, Wyoming to the North and Nebraska, Kansas and Oklahoma to the east makes you realize that there's not much to offer here. Did I mention we are not anywhere near a body of water? Everywhere I have lived has offered water, so I feel like I grew up on the water. I like water sports, jet ski and tubing. All I can do here is fall off the side of the mountain and hope I don't smack into a lift post. Did I mention that I left Rochester because of the snow? Well when you interview somewhere in the summer, you tend to tune out the winter and all its glory. That being, waking up at the ass crack of dawn to scrape your car off to realize you are actually driving to the light rail station (within walking distance anyway) to wait for a train to take you to work. Why? Your car does not like the snow. With the high performance tires I just had to have, they work well in Florida, but not really in any other state. I was wondering why no one else drove a Mazda 6.
Aside from that, I still want to move back to Orlando, where I was happier. It has cost me over $850 on airfare to fly back home just to say "hi." That's an expensive hello. Each time I visit loses its luster a bit. I now have a room in our "house" I call mine, I left clothing there and toiletries so when I fly back again, its a matter of just getting on a plane, no luggage necessary. I realized that flying back for events such as rush and formal are losing my interest, which means that I am growing up to an extent. I don't know why I still go to chapter when I am back...I guess I miss that. I have been to more chapter meetings then some active brothers...and that says a lot.
So...what should I do now? I could move back, but it won't be the same as things were before, that I am sure of. I could stay here, but I am not happy here. I could move some place else and risk not being happy there, but hope would exist that I could be happy. I feel like I am in a bind...I wanted to move here...if I realized where I would be now...I probably would have just stayed. Professionally I am happy. I make a bit more money out here...which I spend going back home...and my colleagues enjoy working with me and vice versa. I have had 1 visitor here though. My old roommate Rob was in transit to Florida and I met him at the airport. I guess that comes close. Next month Kristina is coming to visit. I was thinking of getting a dog for company but I can barely take care of myself...I could use the company though. I know if I chose to move to NYC, I wouldn't be happy either. No one would have visit me there either and I would be living in a closet an hour outside of the city and commuting in using many many modes of transportation.
Any thoughts on what I should do? Where should I go? Is this feeling normal? If so, I just can't shake it...I do, but only when I am home. I think I answered my own question.
So my plan with that job was to move back to Orlando where I was happy for a few reasons. My friends were there, the weather is better and we are in close drive to a significant body of water. Honestly, I didn't think about the city before moving here. Its a great city if you are going to visit, if you look at it on a map, you realize you are out in the middle of freakin nowhere. Bordering Utah to the west, New Mexico to the South, Wyoming to the North and Nebraska, Kansas and Oklahoma to the east makes you realize that there's not much to offer here. Did I mention we are not anywhere near a body of water? Everywhere I have lived has offered water, so I feel like I grew up on the water. I like water sports, jet ski and tubing. All I can do here is fall off the side of the mountain and hope I don't smack into a lift post. Did I mention that I left Rochester because of the snow? Well when you interview somewhere in the summer, you tend to tune out the winter and all its glory. That being, waking up at the ass crack of dawn to scrape your car off to realize you are actually driving to the light rail station (within walking distance anyway) to wait for a train to take you to work. Why? Your car does not like the snow. With the high performance tires I just had to have, they work well in Florida, but not really in any other state. I was wondering why no one else drove a Mazda 6.
Aside from that, I still want to move back to Orlando, where I was happier. It has cost me over $850 on airfare to fly back home just to say "hi." That's an expensive hello. Each time I visit loses its luster a bit. I now have a room in our "house" I call mine, I left clothing there and toiletries so when I fly back again, its a matter of just getting on a plane, no luggage necessary. I realized that flying back for events such as rush and formal are losing my interest, which means that I am growing up to an extent. I don't know why I still go to chapter when I am back...I guess I miss that. I have been to more chapter meetings then some active brothers...and that says a lot.
So...what should I do now? I could move back, but it won't be the same as things were before, that I am sure of. I could stay here, but I am not happy here. I could move some place else and risk not being happy there, but hope would exist that I could be happy. I feel like I am in a bind...I wanted to move here...if I realized where I would be now...I probably would have just stayed. Professionally I am happy. I make a bit more money out here...which I spend going back home...and my colleagues enjoy working with me and vice versa. I have had 1 visitor here though. My old roommate Rob was in transit to Florida and I met him at the airport. I guess that comes close. Next month Kristina is coming to visit. I was thinking of getting a dog for company but I can barely take care of myself...I could use the company though. I know if I chose to move to NYC, I wouldn't be happy either. No one would have visit me there either and I would be living in a closet an hour outside of the city and commuting in using many many modes of transportation.
Any thoughts on what I should do? Where should I go? Is this feeling normal? If so, I just can't shake it...I do, but only when I am home. I think I answered my own question.