and you and me are still but the scenery moves
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title: play it, sam (but i forget how it goes)
author: hyacinthian
rating: all
summary: A Barney/Robin drabble for each episode of the series.
author's note: And long-winded, but here we go. The annoying thing about this series (my fic series, not the show) is that posting a drabble a week is a pain in the ass. It's much easier to do this shit on fanfiction.net but the formatting there is fug, and I love LJ, but pain. in. the. ass. This is 7x01 through 7x05.
the gods may throw their dice
They've always been on the same page, and for the first time, Robin feels like they might have lost that.
She's trying to deal with this - really, she is - but it all seems so confusing. They're at a wedding. They're at a wedding with Ted the Commitment-Seeking, and Marshall and Lily, the already-married, and then there's the two of them. Deny, deny, deny has been their - her - policy for so long that she's not sure how this is going to work. I don't have feelings for you anymore. I'm ready to move on and see other people. And you should be able to see Nora. The words are there and she knows them, but -
It's when he's right there, standing next to her, smelling like him, his shirt slightly rumpled that she can't help but think about how much she misses him.
She opens her mouth to say something, but nothing quite comes out.
He tilts his head, squinting at her.
It's after he calls Nora that he comes and brings her a glass of champagne. The rest of the wedding guests have filtered out, too traumatized by the fight and drunk Marshall. "Thanks," she says, lifting it towards him in toast.
"What a wedding, huh?"
She chuckles. "At least it wasn't because of Ted's best man speech."
"Not really, anyway."
Barney sets his palm on her shoulder, his hand warm. "Thanks for helping me out with Nora," he says. "I'm ... a wreck with this kind of stuff. You remember."
Her laugh is stilted. "Yeah, I remember." She drains the entire glass; his phone rings.
"I have to - " he says.
"Yeah," she says, waving him off. "Go."
When she leaves, the reception hall is completely empty, flower petals crushed beneath her shoe.
and i thought what i felt was simple
Robin knows him.
Or at least, Robin thinks she knows him. And this? This isn't him. It doesn't feel like him. Grand romantic gestures were never his thing - never hers either - and this whole thing with Nora feels...
She doesn't know how it feels. It's too much like two pages of a book that stick together, impossible to separate. This is page 17, this is page 19 - 18 is lost. This was who she was, this is who she wants to be - it's the present that's difficult.
And there are some days when she lies in bed and she thinks this is ridiculous, that she shouldn't be begrudigng his right to be happy. But in the moments before she falls asleep, it will hit her then, just how lonely she feels.
He always understood her. And now she's losing him too.
They were so simple together, the two of them - just an accident, falling together and then falling apart. And Nora isn't that. He thinks about her, he constructs situations, he plans, and what if that was what he really needed all along? What if she is another story to tell on the wayside towards The One for him, even if he doesn't believe in it like Ted does?
Even with how short their time was together, they always made sense on some level. Even if only to her. And now Barney's dressing up in someone else's life and it doesn't make sense (but it does, it does, if only because all kids have to grow up sometime)
and Barney calls her up at midnight that night and tells her that Nora came back, she came back, and they're going on a date and they're not fixed, but he's trying.
He's trying now.
Robin's honestly not sure what hurts more.
we used to be friends a long time ago
"On a scale of one to ten," he says, as Ted heads off to pay off the rest of their tab, "how awful does this look?"
She squints, tilting her head. "Honestly?"
He winces. "Yeah."
"It's..." She laughs. "Yeah, no, it's pretty awful."
He shoves his hands in his pockets, shifting his weight from side to side. "So. Victoria, huh?"
She looks over at Ted. "Yeah. Weird that she showed up again, right?" He hums. "It was a weird time. For all of us. Just...weird."
"We weren't really friends then," he says.
She looks up at him, reaches to finger the end of the tie. "No," she says. "We weren't."
i'm trying to find my peace
She's not going to repeat her mistakes.
Running into Victoria a few days ago, that's one thing, but repeating her sins with Nora? Robin likes to think that she's grown from that, that she's surpassed that level of pettiness. (The court-mandated therapist advises her that no, she hasn't. Still, she's not sure he quite grasps the level of her ability at denial.)
So she sets it up and she waits for the pins to fall and halfway down the block from McClaren's, she can't help but notice how she's become a sad rehash of a 90210 episode.
People can change (or so she hears).
and you and me are still but the scenery moves
The first time Kevin meets Barney is strange.
The reputation precedes him; Kevin knows too much about him, about Robin's relationship to him, and he's unsure how this whole thing is going to go. Robin keeps telling him it's fine, it'll be fine, that they're over and done with, and besides, Barney has Nora now, but Kevin still has his notes. People don't fix how hung up they are on other people so quickly. Still, he really likes her and Robin's - she's incredible.
Barney's surprising. He's louder than Kevin would have suspected, but that's all there is to him - it's a lot of masking.
Robin holds his hand under the table; Kevin misses the way Barney's jaw clenches.
And while we're here, have some thoughts because I watched 7x10 without having any context as to what happened the last 5 weeks:
There was basically a lot of hate going around on every single tracked tag about Robin Scherbatsky which makes me sad because you know that Robin is my girl. And I loved this episode. I LOVED THIS EPISODE. If you walked out of that episode angry at Robin, I just. I disagree with the way you read the ship.
That moment they have where she asks him why he likes her even though she's so messed up and he's like you're not as messed up as me ---
KAREN: FUCKING STOP EXCEPT NEVER STOP OH MY GOD.
That has basically been my reading of them for... fucking ever? And it was great to see it verbalized.
I'm a little uncomfortable with the crazy romantic Barney that's happening but that's also canonical too. I think, in a way, he's going back to who he was pre-Shannon but that person keeps getting hurt again and again in different ways by different people (Robin, Shannon, obviously, but also by his dad).
I also love Kevin so this triangle twist is perfect. PERFECT. Kevin is everything that Don ideally should be. Them meeting and agreeing to date was pitch perfect. Kevin makes sense, and Kevin is a package that Robin would, of course, pursue. He's put together and he's there to rationalize all the parts of her life that she can't figure out or that she can't fix. And Barney is part of that. And when has Robin made sound emotional decisions anyway? Girl is an emotional fuck-up. THAT'S WHY I LOVE HER SO MUCH.
Ugh, this episode. Slayed me. I need to catch up for real now.
title: play it, sam (but i forget how it goes)
author: hyacinthian
rating: all
summary: A Barney/Robin drabble for each episode of the series.
author's note: And long-winded, but here we go. The annoying thing about this series (my fic series, not the show) is that posting a drabble a week is a pain in the ass. It's much easier to do this shit on fanfiction.net but the formatting there is fug, and I love LJ, but pain. in. the. ass. This is 7x01 through 7x05.
the gods may throw their dice
They've always been on the same page, and for the first time, Robin feels like they might have lost that.
She's trying to deal with this - really, she is - but it all seems so confusing. They're at a wedding. They're at a wedding with Ted the Commitment-Seeking, and Marshall and Lily, the already-married, and then there's the two of them. Deny, deny, deny has been their - her - policy for so long that she's not sure how this is going to work. I don't have feelings for you anymore. I'm ready to move on and see other people. And you should be able to see Nora. The words are there and she knows them, but -
It's when he's right there, standing next to her, smelling like him, his shirt slightly rumpled that she can't help but think about how much she misses him.
She opens her mouth to say something, but nothing quite comes out.
He tilts his head, squinting at her.
It's after he calls Nora that he comes and brings her a glass of champagne. The rest of the wedding guests have filtered out, too traumatized by the fight and drunk Marshall. "Thanks," she says, lifting it towards him in toast.
"What a wedding, huh?"
She chuckles. "At least it wasn't because of Ted's best man speech."
"Not really, anyway."
Barney sets his palm on her shoulder, his hand warm. "Thanks for helping me out with Nora," he says. "I'm ... a wreck with this kind of stuff. You remember."
Her laugh is stilted. "Yeah, I remember." She drains the entire glass; his phone rings.
"I have to - " he says.
"Yeah," she says, waving him off. "Go."
When she leaves, the reception hall is completely empty, flower petals crushed beneath her shoe.
and i thought what i felt was simple
Robin knows him.
Or at least, Robin thinks she knows him. And this? This isn't him. It doesn't feel like him. Grand romantic gestures were never his thing - never hers either - and this whole thing with Nora feels...
She doesn't know how it feels. It's too much like two pages of a book that stick together, impossible to separate. This is page 17, this is page 19 - 18 is lost. This was who she was, this is who she wants to be - it's the present that's difficult.
And there are some days when she lies in bed and she thinks this is ridiculous, that she shouldn't be begrudigng his right to be happy. But in the moments before she falls asleep, it will hit her then, just how lonely she feels.
He always understood her. And now she's losing him too.
They were so simple together, the two of them - just an accident, falling together and then falling apart. And Nora isn't that. He thinks about her, he constructs situations, he plans, and what if that was what he really needed all along? What if she is another story to tell on the wayside towards The One for him, even if he doesn't believe in it like Ted does?
Even with how short their time was together, they always made sense on some level. Even if only to her. And now Barney's dressing up in someone else's life and it doesn't make sense (but it does, it does, if only because all kids have to grow up sometime)
and Barney calls her up at midnight that night and tells her that Nora came back, she came back, and they're going on a date and they're not fixed, but he's trying.
He's trying now.
Robin's honestly not sure what hurts more.
we used to be friends a long time ago
"On a scale of one to ten," he says, as Ted heads off to pay off the rest of their tab, "how awful does this look?"
She squints, tilting her head. "Honestly?"
He winces. "Yeah."
"It's..." She laughs. "Yeah, no, it's pretty awful."
He shoves his hands in his pockets, shifting his weight from side to side. "So. Victoria, huh?"
She looks over at Ted. "Yeah. Weird that she showed up again, right?" He hums. "It was a weird time. For all of us. Just...weird."
"We weren't really friends then," he says.
She looks up at him, reaches to finger the end of the tie. "No," she says. "We weren't."
i'm trying to find my peace
She's not going to repeat her mistakes.
Running into Victoria a few days ago, that's one thing, but repeating her sins with Nora? Robin likes to think that she's grown from that, that she's surpassed that level of pettiness. (The court-mandated therapist advises her that no, she hasn't. Still, she's not sure he quite grasps the level of her ability at denial.)
So she sets it up and she waits for the pins to fall and halfway down the block from McClaren's, she can't help but notice how she's become a sad rehash of a 90210 episode.
People can change (or so she hears).
and you and me are still but the scenery moves
The first time Kevin meets Barney is strange.
The reputation precedes him; Kevin knows too much about him, about Robin's relationship to him, and he's unsure how this whole thing is going to go. Robin keeps telling him it's fine, it'll be fine, that they're over and done with, and besides, Barney has Nora now, but Kevin still has his notes. People don't fix how hung up they are on other people so quickly. Still, he really likes her and Robin's - she's incredible.
Barney's surprising. He's louder than Kevin would have suspected, but that's all there is to him - it's a lot of masking.
Robin holds his hand under the table; Kevin misses the way Barney's jaw clenches.
And while we're here, have some thoughts because I watched 7x10 without having any context as to what happened the last 5 weeks:
There was basically a lot of hate going around on every single tracked tag about Robin Scherbatsky which makes me sad because you know that Robin is my girl. And I loved this episode. I LOVED THIS EPISODE. If you walked out of that episode angry at Robin, I just. I disagree with the way you read the ship.
That moment they have where she asks him why he likes her even though she's so messed up and he's like you're not as messed up as me ---
KAREN: FUCKING STOP EXCEPT NEVER STOP OH MY GOD.
That has basically been my reading of them for... fucking ever? And it was great to see it verbalized.
I'm a little uncomfortable with the crazy romantic Barney that's happening but that's also canonical too. I think, in a way, he's going back to who he was pre-Shannon but that person keeps getting hurt again and again in different ways by different people (Robin, Shannon, obviously, but also by his dad).
I also love Kevin so this triangle twist is perfect. PERFECT. Kevin is everything that Don ideally should be. Them meeting and agreeing to date was pitch perfect. Kevin makes sense, and Kevin is a package that Robin would, of course, pursue. He's put together and he's there to rationalize all the parts of her life that she can't figure out or that she can't fix. And Barney is part of that. And when has Robin made sound emotional decisions anyway? Girl is an emotional fuck-up. THAT'S WHY I LOVE HER SO MUCH.
Ugh, this episode. Slayed me. I need to catch up for real now.